Connected with Emily Beatrix

Eva Bloom is a sexual educator who thrives in Toronto, Canada.She hosts workshops and is an online creator .In this episode we talked about what we like about being queer, why casual sex has benefits (I even shared how to not attach to a date or a sex partner from a nervous system lense that I think you’ll find helpful), and if phone sex counts as sex (spoiler, yes, yes it does.)We talked about bi earasure as well as #femmeproblemsI also said, “OH NICE” when Eva (who identifies as gay, bi and queer) said she’s not dating cis dudes and then had to be like, UH I MEAN, NO, SORRY, I SHOULDN’T SAY THAT?!!We talked about fav queer novels, astro (‘cause miss bloom is a Scorpio #obviously) and queer shows we’ve been loving and all that good stuff at the end during rapid fire questions.We both felt extremely fulfilled after chatting and we hope this convo inspires you to have casual sex, sext a pal and or be a little bit more yourself.

The enneagram expert who took instagram by storm with her relatable bingo/ graphics and character description joins us to talk about the popular personality type system.

Alexandra Covucci joins us.  She is a leadership coach who helps people who are really good at what they do work wise, be really good at who they are to have more impact, income and intimacy in their lives. I really like how Alex notices and observes people. Personally, she’s seen some things in me I thought only I knew about - like how I get a kick out myself and have a ton of inside jokes with my own brain. I really wanted to have Alex on the show because she wrote this post that moved me in the summer around how not all advice is made equal and why we should filter in information based on who we are when it comes to the feedback that’s offered to us. No two people are the same and I thought this was a really important piece to bring up in the self-help/ personal developmental community because so much of the teachings are generic and one-size fits all forgoing nuances. Alexandra shares with us that she had just reached her highest business income month ever ealier this year and someone in her inner circle told her that it was time to keep pressing the gas. Knowing herself, she actually said, “no, I’m actually probably going to go take a nap.” I really liked this conversation because knowing ourselves, our past, and our patterns deeply, is a crucial part of how we can make decisions that actually work for us. Kind of like, "there is no better expert in you than you."  We also talk about practicing receiving more money, more love, more attention and how Alex has done it recently. We discuss things like being brave and saying your truth even if your truth is a threat to your current circumstances. Alex ended a 7 year relationship 20 days before a wedding ceremony last year. My favorite part of it all is when we talk about coming out of the closet (and not just in your sexual orientation but in any way you may be hiding), being gay, Alex’s first kiss with a girl when she was in high school, and fitting in and belonging in the self-help community that’s pretty heteronormative currently.

This week I have trauma resolution coach Assana Rae, who’s an excellent and insightful speaker about topics that matter to her like social justice. Honestly, I just really enjoy listening to her. She's got those aquarius sun teacher vibes.  She’s on to talk with me about breath work and her new program called Rooted - which centers on nurturing right relationship to soul, body, earth, linage and sex. My favorite part of it all is around resolving our collective trauma around colonialism. I really enjoyed talking with Assana about how the Catholic Church literally banned and made grieving illegal. I’ve recently re-discovered breath work through Assana Rae and I’ve had some really big moments of healing this summer through adopting a practice - like all my allergies are gone after going on a journey back to my childhood during a session. I knew I had to have her on to talk about the nervous system and brain science behind breath work and the different kinds she practices and teaches. This is a must listen to if you want to stop intellectualizing your emotions and get back to feeling them and letting them move through you. One of my favorite things that I have reclaimed through breath work is that it’s so safe to feel. I think however that my favorite part of the entire episode is at the very end when we are doing rapid fire questions and I ask Assana about what the biggest piece of wisdom she carries is… she shares with us this nugget that goes like: you won’t know your yes until you know your no. It really touched me because as I am at the tail end of navigating my coming out journey and integrating my sexuality as a gay woman, I’ve often felt so strange for having dated so many men in the past 10 years until I arrived at: okay, no, I’m just gay. I often wish I would of had a more clear cut sexuality from the get-go. I envy women who’ve always identified as lesbian or gay and I envied women who always identified as bi or as straight. I was so confused for so long about what my yes was because I hadn’t completely identified my no. Now I that I know… life is just so sweet. I hope you love this episode as much as I did. :) You can find Assana Rae on instagram at https://www.instagram.com/erotic.earth.embodiment/ She also has the best Spotify account I follow here - https://open.spotify.com/user/raehalder

I have my most beloved person in the world with me on the podcast today - my mom Julie. We talk about: not vaccinating me as a child, her divorce and escaping domestic violence (and how that affected her sense of self and her decisions), my benzo addiction, forgiveness and repair in our relationship, bravery, the LOVE we share, who she is and her work as a medium. She also does a live clearing for me on the show and offers a special on her energy clearings for listeners that you can opt into here: https://www.juliecorbeilconsulting.com/energymedicine I highly recommend an energy reading and clearing if you are dealing with any chronic health issues or big relational stuff that feels so stuck no matter how hard you try to free yourself.

Health coach and fellow medical medium healing protocol enthusiast Lauren Henry joins me to talk about what a day in the life of chronic illness recovery looks like.  We talk about not drinking alcohol in social situations, what it's like to heal in the public eye, our love for burritos, and how the medical medium protocols have absolutely given us a chance to heal after long standing health issues that left us crippled post-grad students trying every new health fad with no real success.

Miranda Sophia and I have a lot in common. Not only in our life experiences, and because we are from the same place in the world, but around our approach to our work. She is one of the rare women I’ve met in the healing community who can hold both intellect (and science) and wicked magic like I do. It’s been so cool to get to know her and I feel really privileged to have been able to pick her brain so much for us on the podcast. We sat down and recorded a THREE hour conversation. THREE HOURS of free valuable amazing content guys! She joins us this week to talk about narcissist abuse recovery and her work with women. She talks about how narcissistic abuse recovery initiates us into our sovereignty and power as women in post-traumatic growth. We talk about the earth, water and fire initiations of recovery and what they each entail. To give you a little taste, earth initiation is all about reclaiming safety and stability for your nervous system, water initiation is about creating capacity (widening our river banks) to be resilient/ be able to hold two truths at once, and fire is about reclaiming choice and being in relationship in healthy sovereign ways. We also answer listener questions like does a narcissist know what they are doing, and talk about the energy and consciousness of systems that are failing us like the patriarchy. It may be an episode that you need to talk notes on, or pause and then come back to multiple times. You’ll hear Miranda inviting you to have consent with yourself and take the show in little bites too. Here are some resources we mentioned throughout the show: You may want to check out the book psychopath Free by Jackson MacKenzie On youtube some free and awesome resources would be: Melanie Tonia Evans Inner Integration Surviving Narcissism & Ross Rosenberg Here is a great article that details the kind of tactics narcs can use to manipulate you: https://thoughtcatalog.com/shahida-arabi/2016/06/20-diversion-tactics-highly-manipulative-narcissists-sociopaths-and-psychopaths-use-to-silence-you/

This week on the podcast, I have my friend Sarah Bryn on to talk about how to move out of a lifetime of codependency ​by owning your needs, and being able to communicate them.    Sarah is an artist and guide who uses creativity to help people connect more deeply to themselves and their truth. In this episode we talk about the healing power of using our voice and learning to take up space as women again after eras of being asked to be polite and quietly move through life.   We talk about survival dependency and we question if it's manipulative to meet everyone else's needs to get yours met. Additionally, we chat about our mutual experience of having a hyper response to getting our needs met due to developmental trauma and finally, we talk about the change that is scary to consider when we let everyone be sovereign and respect other people's boundaries.    It's a must listen if you struggle with feeling like people never show up for you and this show may inspire you to show up for yourself in a way you never have before.

This winter, Danielle and I shared a bed, and in the twilight of the evening, I asked her the big question… will you come back on the podcast? Yep that’s right one of my very best friends Danielle Mercurio is BACK on the show as our first repeat guest with an in depth astrology lesson after her popular episode in season 1. We are talking about north nodes/ south nodes/ astro mapping (where should you live), degrees in our chart, what Chiron does and means and we have a couple of good laughs along the way.

I met Christie at a retreat we both attended in La Jolla in March this year. We fell in friend love when we drove up the coast listening (and honestly belting) the hairspray and high school musical soundtrack with our friend Sarah when heading to dinner one night. I was very interested in Christie’s work as a trained therapist and relationship and sex coach, so I invited her on the pod for us to learn from her. We ended up talking about some taboo topics and we shame busted things like how to handle integrating our sexuality in the world as women, stigma surrounding s.t.i/ s.t.ds, and even discussed the extensive ways why shame takes hold in our sexuality that can stem from getting caught masturbating as children and what we are told and observe about sex growing up (we both shared our stories). This is one of my favorite conversations we’ve had so far on the podcast because the point of this entire project is to have unedited conversations that feel like you’re listening to me and my guest talking in my kitchen, and at one point, I literally forgot we were recording a podcast because of the raw honesty we were discussing together. We end the episode with Christie answering your questions to have better sex and intimacy - so this is definitely one you want to stick all the way to the end for. If you enjoyed this one, Christie is hosting a free masterclass next week that you can sign up for here - https://zoom.us/webinar/register/WN_j-tdKSITTU6r-SCAFUO2Tw

In this week’s episode, I have a very special guest on the show - my girlfriend Mel. I met Mel back in January and I'm finally ready to introduce you to her. We talk about gender, sexuality, the coming out process + what my aesthetic is. She says it’s 8 bottles of coconut water with a notebook beside my computer at the end of the day. I strongly like our banter and how we talk with each other. Mel straight up barely does social media, uses her phone like 20 minutes a day, and is she’s a school teacher when she’s not surfing, so the fact that she agreed to do the podcast and talk about being gay WITH ME was a real win. We recorded this episode in a park, so there are times where the sound quality isn’t studio worthy and I so apologize for that. The conversation was too good to ignore though, so I decided we are rolling with it.

In this season 2 premiere of Connected, I talk about my sexuality, how I'm doing grieving my 3 + year relationship with X, where I'm going to live, etc. It's a big one where I describe and have a candid solo episode talking about my 3 biggest fears about being gay, all the grief and simultaneous relief I've felt these past months.

Today on the show, Los Angeles based relationship coach Silvy Khoucasian joins me.  We talk about my favorite topic - attachment styles. We get into how we become either secure attached, anxious attached or avoidant fearful/ avoidant dissmissive attached.  We discuss the four different kind of boundaries - physical, emotional, intellectual and spiritual, and we get into what they mean and how to tell them apart.  You'll love this episode if you loved my favorite book - Attached by Amir Levine.  You can find Silvy on her wesbite: www.silvykhoucasian.com   On instagram: https://www.instagram.com/silvykhoucasian/   And her legendary boundary program can be found her:  https://bryanreeves.com/boundaries-silvy/

Iman Gatti joins the podcast to talk about her own recovery from CPTSD and talks to us about hot topics such as forgiveness, boundaries, and writing our stories.

In this episode, I read my #BellLetsTalk post, an essay where I open up about what it was like to withdraw from Ativan in 2017.    This is the first time I share the details of the experience as I approach 2 years sober.  To read the entry, you can find it at https://emilyaube.ca/emilysblog/withdrawal

Connected is back in your ear buds from a holiday hiatus. And oh boy, do I have a great episode for you.  In this episode, I'm joined with Jaclyn Michelle, human design reader and expert. I first got a reading with Jaclyn in November of last year when I was making some big choices for myself (urm... to go back to California or not). She helped me see myself better than I had in a while. So I had to share my obsession with human design with you in the form of interviewing this former 1st grade teacher turned powerhouse entrepreneur.   She explains to us what human design is and the purpose of it. We get into things such as: the 5 types, authorities, defined and undefined centers, and what the profiles and gates in our charts mean. My favorite part, in the spirit of Connected, is how we all interact with each other based on how our charts jive or trigger each other.  You may want to take notes while listening to this conversation ‘cause it’s so dang good. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. P.s: if you want to do your chart, this is the website J recommends: https://www.mybodygraph.com You can find Jaclyn at https://www.interiorcreature.com

In September of 2018, a day before I found out that my boyfriend had been cheating on me, I had booked myself an initial call with a woman called Lisa Nagel. I had found her the good ol fashioned way - through instagram. I virtually knew nothing about her except for the fact that she worked for a coach I respected in the trauma resolution world and she seemed to enjoy tarot cards. Obviously, that’s my type of human. The call ended up being a bust because I was staying up in the mountains of the San Gabriel Valley where on Saturday mornings, wifi was optional. Lisa was so accommodating with my unusual sense of chaos, while I thought she’d write me off as a flake of a potential client. Instead, she showed me incredible amount of compassion. At the time, I had no idea that I was going to have to grieve my entire 3 year relationship with a man I was planning on marrying before the end of the year. Yet, I still signed myself up to inquire about signing up for her wild sensitive grieving program before the big reveal. We joke in this interview, that like, what was I thinking I needed to grieve before the collapse happened? I felt a little crazy hiring yet another support person. I already had my therapist and my trauma resolution practitioner along with all my other wellness peeps, so it felt excessive. At one point, I felt like I had a whole other job just going to my appointments. But honestly, hiring Lisa as my new coach was one of the best top 3 decisions of my life. Working with her has actually lessened my need for more outside support because I’ve met and connected with myself in ways I NEVER have through her guidance. She is magic. In this episode, we talk about Lisa’s own journey with grief, all cumulating when she got divorced at 24 years old. We talk about grief as an invitation, what it invited Lisa to and what it could be inviting you to do. She teaches us about holy truths surrounding grief - that you want to hear if you’re going through a hard time so that things can make more sense. We also talk about what grief feels like. Lisa gives us tips on how to navigate fresh heartbreak and loss and she tells us about the storm season and how to honor that you’re in it. She talks to us about processed and unprocessed grief and guides us on how to softly meet ourselves, perhaps for the very first time, after our world falls apart.

Des is one of my best friends and has been a healing force in my life, especially in the past few months with her presence and FOOD. Lately, we’ve been having weekly family style dinners and we recorded this episode sitting in her devotional room after stuffing our faces, and chewing properly, with the best Brussels sprouts ever.    Desiree teaches me so much about sisterhood, alongside digestion and health in general. She let’s us know that our relationship to self and our relationship to our community can be simultaneously existing at all times through example as a kundalini yoga teacher and holistic nutritionist.    I really love this woman and her wealth of knowledge is uncanny. Because of this, she came on the pod to talk with me about what’s wrong with the world, kundalini yoga, nurturing female friendships, her past with disordered eating and how she has cultivated a positive long lasting loving relationship with food.    She also loves eye contact, so come to her classes and her life changing women’s circles if you’re in our area.

Here’s the deal: a woman is not meant to be a man, but that doesn’t mean she isn’t powerful. In this episode, Lena Dolter is with us to teach us how to harness each phase of our cyclical nature as a woman, so that we can maximize our power and live in flow with ourselves, instead of trying to survive while working against our own natural innate rhythm.   We touch on things like how to insert a lena cup (or diva cup), why it’s normal to be horny AF when you’re ovulating, what Lena believes about contraception, and we have a really profound discussion about how the closer we get to our bodies, the more intimately we can have our identity be revealed to us.   If you’re obsessed with periods like I am, or you’re curious to know how to live in YOUR flow, listen to the episode and get your world rocked in the best way possible.

In this episode, I’m joined by my Write to Heal client Amber Rochelle, who works with highly sensitive women to heal their relationship with themselves and their sensitivity so that they can discover how truly powerful they really are. She believes sensitivity is no accident and teaches us that being sensitive is an actual gene that affects our brain. In this episode, learn how an highly sensitive person (HSP) presents, and gain tools on how to manage your sensitivity like how to take your emotional pulse. Plus, hear what Amber thinks you should do if someone calls you ‘too sensitive’. Links based on what we talked about that may be useful for you: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/attending-the-undervalued-self/201003/time-find-out-are-you-highly-sensitive-0https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/articles/201107/sense-and-sensitivity?collection=154834https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/neuroscience-in-everyday-life/201805/what-not-say-highly-sensitive-person-and-whyhttps://www.telegraph.co.uk/health-fitness/body/highly-sensitive-people/   The book the highly sensitive person: https://www.amazon.com/Highly-Sensitive-Person-Thrive-Overwhelms/dp/0553062182/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1541802296&sr=8-1&keywords=the+highly+sensitive+person+by+elaine+aron