Not So Anonymous

On Dylans final episode of Not So Anonymous the guys reminisce on everything this podcast has done for them and all the memories they have made along the way, Donny has a date, Jordan makes a public apology, Gumer romances the drink, and Dylan signs up to be the first guest on this "End of an Era" episode of Not So Anonymous 

The guys continue their conversation on the steps as we dive into some benefits and skepticism on prayer and meditation. Donny takes a trip to outer space, Dylan knows more about God than anyone, Jordan believes masturbation is meditation and manifestation all in one and Gumer eats mushrooms and dies in this “conscious contact” episode of not so anonymous.

We continued to take personal inventory. It’s important that once we get to the tenth step we maintain the willingness we showed in steps 4-9 and identify our character assets and liabilities. Jordan quits the podcast, Donny flexes his social skills on Dylan while Dylan deals with social anxiety and Gumer has a resentment toward an old lady in this “promptly admitted” episode of not so anonymous.

Have you ever had to make a difficult apology to someone? This week the guys discuss the difficulty and freedom when we make an honest amends for our actions and arrive at the place of forgiveness. Dylan isn’t working his steps, Gumer makes an amends at a drunken party, Donny swings a hammer on acid and Jordan thinks his ex might take him back in this “my side of the street” episode of not so anonymous.

Have you ever genuinely wanted to have your character defects removed? Tune in and hear the process the guys took and the changing defects of character they deal with. Dylan hustles a kid for his shoes, Jordan decided he has no defects of character, Gumer steals money and gets a free lunch from QT and Donny stores his character defects in his cargo short pockets in this “humbly asked him to remove” episode of not so anonymous.

The guys finish up their talk on the 4th and 5th step. Gumer runs the show, Jordan finds out he is not perfect, Dylan stops talking shit, and Donny goes through puberty in recovery, in this slightly awkward sex and secrets filled episode of Not So Anonymous. 

the guys continue their work on step four and cleaning out the wreckage of their past. Dylan got an empty storage unit, Gumer didn't like Dylan, Donny is a hugger, Jordan digs deep on this fear heavy episode of Not So Anonymous

We took a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. How difficult can it be to dig deep into our own inventory and discover our true character? Dylan forgot to put a seat belt on his fourth step note book, Jordan tries not to black out, Donny is getting sick because of Gumers secrets and Gumer has an incredible breakthrough as the guys ask and answer some difficult questions in this moral inventory episode of Not So Anonymous.

What is step 3 and why can it be so difficult to turn our lives over to God? The guys discuss a tough time in their recoveries and the result of living in self will. Dylan isn’t allowed to go to Mexico, Jordan sponsors Donny and Gumer’s days are numbered in this God’s will (sometimes) episode of Not So Anonymous.

We came to believe. The guys dive into step 2 and the experience in coming to believe. Can Donny take on Mother Nature? Is Jordan drinking fireball? Is Gumer awake? Who gets the job at Costco? Tune in to this higher power episode of Not So Anonymous to find out.

What does unmanageable mean to us? The guys reflect back at the denial of their addictions, the bottoms it took them to and the surrender that eventually took place. Donny used a steak knife on his legs, Dylan pees in his closet, Jordan leaves the bar unattended and Gumer goes to jail every other weekend in this “powerless” episode of Not So Anonymous

Is it still good enough to just stay clean today in our recoveries? Jordan has 2 weeks of no character defects, Donny has great ideas in his active addiction, Dylan runs for Mayor of his city and a Gumer discusses the difficulty of losing his mother is this “go to any lengths” season finale of Not So Anonymous.

What does it mean to be present and what are the benefits and hardships that come with it? Donny tries to use a sperm bank to buy crypto, Jordan is allowed at his sisters wedding, Dylan gets high on pre work out and Gumer becomes an emotional pillar during the toughest time of his families life in this God did for me what I couldn’t episode of Not So Anonymous.

It’s been a tough couple of months for Gumer. After experiencing a shoulder injury, his kids and family getting sick, and ultimately losing his brother while his mother is still in the hospital find out how he turns to his program, accepts help, finds connection and re-establishes a relationship with God in this “he ain’t lying” episode of not so anonymous.

Service work is one of the best ways to stay clean and get out of selfish, self centered behavior. Even when we really don’t want to, the guys make themselves available to go on 12th step calls, mission trips, H&I meetings and messed up trips with other people’s luggage in this selfless (kind of) episode of not so anonymous. 

The guys make an attempt to cut pornography and masturbation out of their lives as they talk about the constant need for stimulation, how they were introduced to sex and any sexual traumas or insecurities they may face in this at times raunchy but healing conversation.

Triggers. What are they and when do they come? The guys discuss moments of triggers and how they dealt with them. Donny relapses, Jordan hides from his parents, Dylan lies to a sponsee and Gumer just needs a week off the drugs in this mindset matters episode of not so anonymous.

How many of us have used drugs against our will? The guys talk about the moments of active addiction and a life lived with out choices. Donny puts 2 dollars in the gas tank, Gumer has a weird collection, Jordan makes the walk of shame and Dylan writes himself a letter in this “I can’t stop” episode of not so anonymous.

It was an amazing July for the guys. Jordan got 18 months, Dylan got 2 years and Donny celebrates his 30th birthday with a rock, the crack and a flop. Tune in to this survivors guilt feeling, gratitude packed, fellowshipping, complexed emotional episode of not so anonymous.

What are our attitudes like after some time in recovery? Are we practicing acceptance and willing to change our behavior or are we sitting in self pity? Dylan calls AM radio stations while getting high, Gumer can't get out of his will, Jordan doesn't want to be sad anymore and Donny hits his friends in this attitude of gratitude episode of not so anonymous.