Krystal Fking Clear

In this episode of Krystal Fking Clear listen as Krystal shares about the impact PCOS, endometriosis, and her fertility journey has had on her physical health and the ultimate decision Krystal made as a result of that.  In this episode you'll hear about:- the consistent and aggressive way Krystal gained weight as a result of IVF- what it was like grappling with the decision on whether to get weight loss surgery- the unique universal signs that told Krystal she was making the right decision for her- the scary part about weight loss surgery- how Krystal prepared mentally, emotionally and energetically for the surgery... and  so much more!Share your takeaways with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

Continuing on Krystal's fertility journey, in this episode of Krystal Fking Clear listen as she shares about their first frozen embryo transfer. The super uncomfortable symptoms that come with the hormone injections and medication and the surprising regular ritual that bonded Krystal and her partner Bruce during this tough time.  In this episode you'll hear about: - the excruciating pain and panic attack Krystal experience during the procedure- how Krystal deals with the dark days during IVF- the impact weight gain had on Krystal's mental and emotional health- the keepsake that Krystal still has to this day- what Krystal is grateful for in this IVF journey... and  so much more!Share your takeaways with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

Continuing on Krystal's fertility journey, in this episode of Krystal Fking Clear listen as she shares about her initial IVF appointment and what unfolded from there. She also shares about why she is intentional about the support forums and groups she joins whilst on her fertility journey.  In this episode you'll hear about:- why everyone's IVF journey will look and feel different- Krystal's egg collection process - why Krystal and her partner Bruce chose to freeze their embryos- what deciding to do her first frozen transfer meant for Krystal... and  so much more!Share your takeaways with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

In this episode of Krystal Fking Clear listen as we deep dive into Krystal's fertility journey... hear how Krystal accidentally overheard doctors discussing her case in the hallways of a hospital and what she consequently learnt and understood from that information. In this episode you'll hear about:- what getting diagnosed with endometriosis and PCOS meant for her- what different medications were prescribed to Krystal and what they did to her body- the moment it dawned on Krystal what a natural fertility centre meant - how she found the right fertility doctor for her- why Krystal started questioning if she even wants children... and  so much more!Share your takeaways with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

In this episode of Krystal Fking Clear we change lanes... listen as Krystal takes you through the process of her fertility journey. Going back to the start Krystal shares with us her on/off relationship with the pill, actually meeting someone she wanted to procreate with and the tumultuous relationship she's had with her body and hormones since being a teenager. In this episode you'll hear about:- going off the pill and being diagnosed with PCOS- the vicious cycle of gaining and losing weight- how Krystal became a self fulfilling prophecy- deciding we wanted to start a family... and  so much more!Share your takeaways with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

In this episode of Krystal Fking Clear listen as Krystal gives us behind-the-scenes access to her internal dialogue, sharing with us how she has gone back to listen to the last six episodes and the feelings of vulnerability and terror that come up. If you've ever wanted to understand what layered and complex trauma in someone can sound like, listen in! In this episode you'll hear about:- what lies your brain can tell you to keep you safe and small - what holding conflicting feelings looks like IRL- how to give yourself compassion when judging yourself too harshly- why not wanting to hurt her Mum has Krystal doubting if she'll ever release this podcast publicly- why defensiveness is a generational trauma response for Krystal... and  so much more!Share your takeaways with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

**Trigger warning: this episode talks about child sexual abuse**Picture this, you're a teenager navigating some pretty big shit and you come home from school to your Mum having ransacked your room, uncovering your deepest, darkest secret. And she told your whole world. In this episode of Krystal Fking Clear listen as Krystal shares about the moment it all fell apart. In this episode you'll hear about:- when adults betray trust and act without emotional regulation - the fallout from fragmented memories as a result of dissociated trauma- what happens when we project from our own wounds- what a long history of abuse and manipulation can do to someone's young mind- the heaviness of navigating an experience like this in your formative years with no proper support... and so much more!Share your takeaways with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

**Trigger warning: this episode talks about child sexual abuse**Continuing on from episode three, listen as Krystal gets raw about her personal healing journey and moving on from trauma. She shares with us about dealing with the inner critic, the importance of trusting the process and getting the support you need.  In this episode you'll hear about: - the reality of what it looks like to release shame - showing up to do the healing work on the good days as well as the days you're in the pit- the power of getting your feelings validated by a professional- why people often don't have all the memories when they've experienced trauma... and so much more!Share your takeaways with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

**Trigger warning: this episode talks about child sexual abuse**In the most explosive episode of season 2 listen as Krystal shares something she has grappled with since her teenage years. It wasn't until Krystal started seeing a therapist that the veil lifted and she realised the trauma that had transpired all those years before. An episode you don't want to miss! In this episode you'll hear about:- how Krystal was vilified and blamed when she was actually an innocent child - what 'grooming' is and how it progresses- why sharing this story is so important to Krystal- the weight of carrying shame around that wasn't hers to carry... and so much more!Share your takeaways with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

In this episode of Krystal Fking Clear, Krystal takes us back to her own childhood and the challenges of frequently moving schools in her formative years. Listen as she opens up and shares about the origins of her sisterhood wound and how she navigated rejection, bullying, friendship and external validation.In this episode you'll hear about:- how even to this day groups of women can still trigger trauma for Krystal- what it means to own it all and take responsibility for your past- why examining your relationship with external validation is important- how Krystal navigated the instability of her home life in her teenage years... and so much more!Share your takeaways with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

She's back and diving to the depths of her edges! It's a new season of Krystal Fking Clear where she walks us through the skeletons in her own closet, taking us on her healing journey in real time.  Before we dive into this next chapter, Krystal takes a moment to share with us the realities of sharing so vulnerably in season one and the women that made it all worth it. Listen as she walks us through how she overcame questioning everything to finally hit record again!In this episode you'll hear about:- what a *real* healing journey looks like with ups and downs- the mantra that Krystal leans on when she is procrastinating- what she'll be sharing about in season two Share your takeaways with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

In this episode of Krystal Fking Clear we hear about how Krystal is honouring her and her Mothers's healing journey through all of this emotional unpacking. Listen as she speaks about climbing emotional mountains, that whilst feeling incredibly cathartic, also call for a time of rest + integration. Krystal opens up about how telling her Mother's story has led to a quantum healing for both women... there's also a super special surprise for you at the end of this episode which is sure to leave you in tears, so grab the tissue box and dive in!Share your takeaway's with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

In this episode Krystal takes us through her Mum's teenage years, where after the sudden + shocking death of her Father she fled from a toxic household without processing any of the abuse she suffered, battling with addiction to cope. Krystal reflects on the interesting parallels between her personal experience of the Mother/daughter dynamic as a teenager + her Mother's troubled relationship with her own Mum (Krystal's Grandmother).  Listen to the huge shift that occurs when generational healing, forgiveness + unconditional love happens.Share your takeaway's with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

Listen as Krystal unpacks with us in real time the aftermath of finally naming her Mother's abuser + everything that unfolded leading up to the release of the episode. Krystal shares with us the guilt that arose for her Mother after releasing a decades old secret + the sad but common side effects that happens when a survivor tells the truth about their abuse. Krystal talks to us about disassociation + regression, sharing insight about the impact abuse or severe trauma has on a child's brain. This episode really does bring home the miraculous life her Mother created from heart-breaking + horrific beginnings. Share your takeaway's with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

*TRIGGER WARNING - This episode talks explicitly about childhood sexual abuse + trauma*Krystal heartbreakingly shares with us the unfathomable reality of her Mother's childhood... a story that no child deserves. Hear how the adults in her life failed to protect her from a heinous abuser who is finally named + how the many layers of complexity surrounding this family finally come to light. Please if any of the information in this episode triggered you please find support at:Lifeline 13 11 14 Beyond Blue 1300 22 4636Blue Knot Foundation  1300 657 380 Reach out to Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

**TRIGGER WARNING - this episode talks about child sexual abuse**As one of the toughest episodes Krystal has shared with us thus far, she takes us back to where it all began... her childhood +  earliest heartbreak, the Motherwound. Hear as Krystal describes the relationship she had with her Mother as a young child growing into adolescence + how the sometimes toxic dynamic played out before ultimately healing the relationship into a now thriving Mother-daughter duo!As the living, walking, breathing proof of a woman who has turned her pain into her power, Krystal shows us that no one has to stay identified with their personal or generational trauma.Share your takeaway's with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

Krystal dives into sharing about her whirlwind romance with Bruce + how in the early days things felt very different as she questioned whether it was love or lust after moving in together a mere 3 months into meeting. She unabashedly shares with us the repeated thoughts that kept her in fear of fucking it up, of feeling unworthy + unlovable... the toll that constantly sabotaging the only nice guy she had ever dated took on her + the breakthrough moments that kicked off her self-healing journey.Krystal gives us her insights into the fundamental dynamic that is needed in any masculine/feminine relationship for it to be healthy + feel fulfilling plus the moment a beautiful old Balinese man released decades worth of trauma in one touch. Share your takeaway's with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

Done with the toxic relationship that haunted her for 4 years Krystal invites us into her next chapter, internet dating. Moving from out of control chaos to a supportive structure of routine, Krystal shares with us how she did a complete 180 in turning her health around to gain back her confidence + start healing the inner demons. Wading through the pool of the online dating world, Krystal unexpectedly gets a message from a previous match... listen as she unfolds the real-life romance that follows as she meets her knight in shining armour!Share your takeaway's with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

In this episode Krystal further unpacks the dynamic of not dealing with your shit... openly + vulnerably sharing about life when everything looks good on the OUTside. Upon receiving a big money cheque, Krystal could shop + party her way into pretending, hiding + denying the internal shitshow that was happening... or could she?She candidly chats about drug use, learning to value yourself over external success + how to hold big money. She shows us that taking radical responsibility to move out of self-destruct mode is available to all of us + that avoiding the feelings does not work forever. Sometimes things need to run its course - we always get where we're going! Share your takeaway's with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

** Trigger warning this episode talks about pregnancy termination**Leading on from the last episode Krystal shares more about the coping mechanisms that distracted her from the emotional pain of her breakdown after arriving in Queensland: party drugs, alcohol + internet dating. What could go wrong, right!Her hilarious anecdotal stories of disaster dates + pathetic pick-up lines unfold into a surprising relationship that admittedly falls outside of her personal value system, one that ultimately led to her healing.Share your takeaway's with Krystal here:https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/