Esencia

Welcome to Season 2 of Come With Me — a podcast devoted to the portals that initiate us into deeper love, wilder truth, and unapologetic embodiment. In this opening episode, I share a deeply personal story of rupture with the woman who raised me — my Samoan grandmother — and the emotional reckoning that followed when repair wasn’t possible. This isn’t just a story about family; it’s a reflection on what happens when love remains… but safety, attunement, and accountability do not. We explore: The truth about repair (and why it’s rarely mutual) How ancestral trauma shapes our nervous systems and intimacy patterns The emotional progression from resentment to contempt What it means to return to yourself when others can’t meet you The difference between performative and embodied repair And the radical self-leadership required to break generational cycles This episode is for those who’ve over-given, over-explained, and still felt unseen. For those navigating the grief of love without safety. For those ready to stop waiting for someone else to change… and start choosing themselves. You heal forward by healing back. And that healing begins in your body. Let’s stay connected: Instagram: @catrinaarmendariz Website: www.catrinaarmendariz.com 🎧 Subscribe + leave a review to spread the love

Let's explore multiple orgasms, multi-orgasmic experiences and orgasmic states. Inspired by her own journey into understanding her sexuality, Catrina passionately shares her early childhood experiences with erotic energy and evolution towards embracing multi-orgasmic states and exploring pleasure beyond traditional perspectives. Through her compelling narrative, Catrina embarks on a liberating journey to dismantle societal norms and stereotypes while fostering self-realization and healing. Discover the extraordinary world of clitoral orgasms, deep vaginal zone (g-spot, g-zone, cervical, etc.) orgasms, multiple orgasms, orgasmic states, pelvic contractions for orgasms, and so much more. Learn more about the clitoris, the glans clitoris, and the intricate nerve pathways that innervate the female genitalia access, offering diverse sensations of pleasure. Gain a clear understanding of the difference between localized genital orgasms and full-bodied orgasms, and delve into the sensory intricacies that culminate in an orgasmic state of consciousness. Beyond the physical, this episode also touches the mystical nexus between physical and emotional experiences—creating an orgasmic state of being that has the power to transform everyday life. Learn about the role of hormones, the concept of multiple orgasms, the refractory period, and the current scientific studies related to female orgasms. Our goal? To encourage women to embrace and enjoy their sexuality in a safe, shame-free, and empowering space. Listen to this episode to validate your experiences, gain insights, and spark inquiries into your own path of self-discovery and erotic energy. Are you ready for the journey into the extraordinary world of female pleasure?   Episode Highlights: [02:51] Multi-Orgasms vs. Orgasmic States [04:00] My First Orgasm & Erotic Innocence [05:07] Clitoral Orgasm [06:33] The Two Orgasm Types [07:50] Early Childhood Orgasmic Meditations [09:37] Pleasure as Escape (Attached vs. Unattached Enjoyment) [11:14] Emotional Release for Integrated Pleasure [12:44] The Four Nerve Pathways for Female Orgasm [14:45] Are All Orgasms Pleasurable? Compliant Sex. [15:28] All Senses vs. Friction-Based Orgasm [16:15] Vagus Nerve, Spinal Orgasms & Ejaculation [17:01] Hormonal Pathways to Orgasm [18:29] Self-Touch / Self-Pleasure [20:15] The Refractory Period [21:01] Explosive vs. Implosive Orgasms [21:41] The Major Scientific Study: Masters & Johnson  [23:39] Male vs. Female Centered View of Orgasm [23:55] Closing     Useful Links https://www.catrinax.com https://www.instagram.com/catrinaarmendariz https://www.youtube.com/@catrinax https://www.youtube.com/c/catrinaarmendariz

I've moved back to O'ahu, spending lots of time on the North Shore, learning to surf, and having more incredible cervical orgasms.  In this episode, I highlight the gift being on the North Shore during surf season (Winter) has been, the incredibly intimate experiences I had with my most recent partner, and I reveal why I don't use condoms or contraception, and the harm these and lubricants can bring to our mind-body system. Episode Highlights: [2:32]  I Moved Back to O’ahu [3:53]  The Seven Mile Miracle (North Shore) [8:28]  My First Surf Lesson [9:06]  Wana (Sea Urchins) aka "Fauna" 🙃 [10:23]  More Cervical Orgasms & New Partner [15:38]  Self-Pleasure Demo with Partner [16:00]  Porn, Shame, Self-Abandonment [19:55]  Inviting my Partner to Touch Me [20:57]  Spontaneous vs. Response Arousal [25:27]  My Spontaneous Arousal with Partner [27:26]  vs. Typical Responsive Arousal  [27:59]  Best Sex Post-Celibacy [30:34]  Vulva, Vagina, and The Three Gates [31:22]  Disclaimer to my Future Husband [32:08]  Inviting Him to Pleasure Me (Communication, Exploration) [33:11]  My Doctor-Patient Fantasy [33:53]  His Guidance During Penetrative Sex [34:59]  Jackhammering (vs. Grinding, Gyrating, etc.) [37:36]  The Multiorgasmic Experience [39:23]  Loss of Emotional Safety [41:20]  Surf Competition / Hurley Pro Sunset Beach 2024 [44:15]  Unprotected Sex [47:31]  Chemicals in Condoms, Contraceptives, Lubricant, Vaginal Microbiome, pH, Osmolality [69:37]  Contraception: Fertility Cycling, Withdrawal & Peeing, Hormonal Implications for Women, Surgical, Neem for Men [78:59]  Sensation vs. Friction Sex [79:57]  Post-Nut Clarity [84:15]  Empaths, Numbing, Responsibility, Support [86:04]  Sensation vs. Friction Sex   Useful Links https://www.catrinax.com https://www.instagram.com/catrinaarmendariz https://www.youtube.com/@catrinax https://www.youtube.com/c/catrinaarmendariz

Let's explore multiple orgasms, multi-orgasmic experiences and orgasmic states. Inspired by her own journey into understanding her sexuality, Catrina passionately shares her early childhood experiences with erotic energy and evolution towards embracing multi-orgasmic states and exploring pleasure beyond traditional perspectives. Through her compelling narrative, Catrina embarks on a liberating journey to dismantle societal norms and stereotypes while fostering self-realization and healing. Discover the extraordinary world of clitoral orgasms, deep vaginal zone (g-spot, g-zone, cervical, etc.) orgasms, multiple orgasms, orgasmic states, pelvic contractions for orgasms, and so much more. Learn more about the clitoris, the glans clitoris, and the intricate nerve pathways that innervate the female genitalia access, offering diverse sensations of pleasure. Gain a clear understanding of the difference between localized genital orgasms and full-bodied orgasms, and delve into the sensory intricacies that culminate in an orgasmic state of consciousness. Beyond the physical, this episode also touches the mystical nexus between physical and emotional experiences—creating an orgasmic state of being that has the power to transform everyday life. Learn about the role of hormones, the concept of multiple orgasms, the refractory period, and the current scientific studies related to female orgasms. Our goal? To encourage women to embrace and enjoy their sexuality in a safe, shame-free, and empowering space. Listen to this episode to validate your experiences, gain insights, and spark inquiries into your own path of self-discovery and erotic energy. Are you ready for the journey into the extraordinary world of female pleasure?   Episode Highlights: [02:51] Multi-Orgasms vs. Orgasmic States [04:00] My First Orgasm & Erotic Innocence [05:07] Clitoral Orgasm [06:33] The Two Orgasm Types [07:50] Early Childhood Orgasmic Meditations [09:37] Pleasure as Escape (Attached vs. Unattached Enjoyment) [11:14] Emotional Release for Integrated Pleasure [12:44] The Four Nerve Pathways for Female Orgasm [14:45] Are All Orgasms Pleasurable? Compliant Sex. [15:28] All Senses vs. Friction-Based Orgasm [16:15] Vagus Nerve, Spinal Orgasms & Ejaculation [17:01] Hormonal Pathways to Orgasm [18:29] Self-Touch / Self-Pleasure [20:15] The Refractory Period [21:01] Explosive vs. Implosive Orgasms [21:41] The Major Scientific Study: Masters & Johnson  [23:39] Male vs. Female Centered View of Orgasm [23:55] Closing     Useful Links https://www.catrinax.com https://www.instagram.com/catrinaarmendariz https://www.youtube.com/@catrinax https://www.youtube.com/c/catrinaarmendariz

In this episode, Catrina introduces the four key reasons why we engage in sexual activities. Delve into the profound connection between sexual energy and consciousness, and uncover the profound reasons for our seemingly insatiable desire for sex and orgasms. Catrina applies the teachings of Tao and Tantra and various embodiment practices to explore these motivations, namely: reproduction, recreation, restoration and transformation. Each reason holds its own unique hue in our sexual palette, casting light on the myriad ways humans derive pleasure, seek relief, experience passion and achieve profound personal transformation through sexual experiences.   Episode Highlights: [03:10] The Spiritual Reason [05:27] 1) Reproductive [06:02] 2) Recreation [06:36] 3) Regenerative [07:48] 4) Transformative [08:47] Taoist Tantric Practices / Cultivation of Sexual Energy [11:08] All Energy is Sexual Energy? [12:23] Optimize the Framework [14:23] Compliant Sex vs. Self-Abandonment or Non-Consensual Sex [17:07] 3-in-1 / 4-in-1   Useful Links https://www.catrinax.com https://www.instagram.com/catrinaarmendariz https://www.youtube.com/@catrinax https://www.youtube.com/c/catrinaarmendariz

In this episode, Catrina introduces the four key reasons why we engage in sexual activities. Delve into the profound connection between sexual energy and consciousness, and uncover the profound reasons for our seemingly insatiable desire for sex and orgasms. Catrina applies the teachings of Tao and Tantra and various embodiment practices to explore these motivations, namely: reproduction, recreation, restoration and transformation. Each reason holds its own unique hue in our sexual palette, casting light on the myriad ways humans derive pleasure, seek relief, experience passion and achieve profound personal transformation through sexual experiences.   Episode Highlights: [03:10] The Spiritual Reason [05:27] 1) Reproductive [06:02] 2) Recreation [06:36] 3) Regenerative [07:48] 4) Transformative [08:47] Taoist Tantric Practices / Cultivation of Sexual Energy [11:08] All Energy is Sexual Energy? [12:23] Optimize the Framework [14:23] Compliant Sex vs. Self-Abandonment or Non-Consensual Sex [17:07] 3-in-1 / 4-in-1   Useful Links https://www.catrinax.com https://www.instagram.com/catrinaarmendariz https://www.youtube.com/@catrinax https://www.youtube.com/c/catrinaarmendariz  

Embark on a wonderfully intimate journey with your host, Catrina Armendariz, who opens up about the transformative power of cervical orgasm. A somatic therapist, sex and intimacy coach, and founder of Esencia, Catrina discusses her personal experiences with self-pleasure, erotic energy, and body consciousness. She also shares her insights gained from over 30 years of tantric and embodiment practices. The conversation revolves around her third experience with cervical orgasm since starting the podcast. Engrossing and poignantly vulnerable, this episode uncovers the deep connection between sex, intimacy, and personal evolution. A unique exploration of orgasm not merely as a release but as an empowering tool of transformation. A transformative leap that depicts just how profoundly sensual energy can impact personal growth and self-empowerment. Delving into the rarely discussed topic of self-administered orgasm, Catrina recounts her experiences with her clients and personal life, and how they informed her journey. She discusses the idea of self-reliance and balance in sexual pleasure, and how self-practice can contribute to a richer experience with partners. Beyond the physical, this episode highlights the emotional release involved in cervical orgasms. Catrina shares about the sensations, tenderness and vulnerability that come with such deep and powerful experiences. Her newfound insights further compliment her approach to self-pleasure and affirm the often overlooked potential of orgasm for emotional release and awakening. The episode extends further discussing the transformative potential of orgasms and the different types of sex. She then extends an invitation to her listeners to be intentional about their evolution by exploring their orgasmic potential. Along the way, she also shares a bit about navigating relationship boundaries and client interactions, showing the real-life applications and impacts of her content. Join Catrina on this deeply intimate and transformative journey that’s sure to inspire you towards embracing the healing power of pleasure, sex, and self-love.   [00:00] Intro [01:44] Inspo for my Self-Administered Orgasm [03:20] Yoni De-Armouring Practice & Erotic Energy Cultivation [04:34] My Wand & Cervical Orgasm [05:51]  Invitation for Emotional Release [06:41]  Self-Practice vs. Partnered Practice [09:28] Transformative Power of Self-Practice: Revealing & Integrating Shame, Vulnerability, Tenderness, Shadow [11:51] The Four Types of Sex [15:75] Pleasure-Centered Transformation [17:31] Invitation to Dive into Your Personal Practice 

Does your yoni tense up prior to or during penetration?  This episode delves into the process of yoni darmouring as a means of cultivating inner-safety and unlocking receptivity on all levels of mind-body-soul.  Join me as I share a bit of my own journey through dearmouring practices.  Yoni Dearmouring is the practice of dissolving barriers to intimacy on all levels: energetic, psycho-emotional, and the physical.  The physical practices such as massage are most accessible; however, the deeper work transcends the physical alone and includes the cultivation of self-awareness as well as experiences of deep emotional release and catharsis.  

I just had my first cervical orgasm since completing my four-year celibacy last year.  In this episode, I share the beauty that it was, it's healing and purifying qualities, as well as cross-overs with the HOURS-LONG energetic and transcendental orgasms I experienced in Tantric practices in India.  References: Kundalini Yoga, the Microcosmic Orbit and ancient Taoist Sexual Reflexology, Tao Tantra.

What if you’re not behind in love? What if Saturn is simply preparing you for the kind of union that's a match to your depth? In this deeply personal and illuminating transmission, Catrina shares the long arc of her 19-year Saturn Mahadasha — a sacred timeline of karmic relationships, feminine refinement, heartbreak, discipline, and devotion. Through the lens of Jyotish (Vedic astrology), she unpacks how Saturn initiates us into emotional maturity, spiritual leadership, and sovereign self-love. If you’ve ever felt like your path is slower, heavier, or more serious than others… this episode is for you.  It's a sweet reminder that Saturn's delays bear inevitable fruit, not the least of which is the most exquisite expansion you'll ever taste. And for feminine leaders, the love of your life often arrives only once you’ve become the woman who is fully a match to it. 🔥 Inside, we explore: The soul’s karmic blueprint through Saturn Mahadasha & Sade Sati The difference between Western & Vedic astrology (and why it matters) What Catrina looks for in Jyotish compatibility when dating intentionally The evolution from karmic entanglement to sovereign love Saturn in synastry, the D9 chart, and dharmic partnership Why Saturn teaches us to play the long game — in love, in legacy, and in becoming unshakable This is for the woman walking the path of devotion, discipline, and divine timing. The woman who leads with love — even when it costs her everything. The woman who’s done waiting… and is now becoming.

In this episode, I share a raw transmission recorded during 2023's Saturn Retrograde. I was in the 2nd phase of my Sade Sati (Saturn's transit through the house before, of and after the moon) and the 17th year (of 19 years) of my Saturn Mahadasha. This is from the lens of Jyotish / Vedic Astrology. My natal Saturn is retrograde in Scorpio (indicating a more intense and interiorized activation of Saturn's themes), and this entire Saturn era has been a time of deep karmic reckoning, grief, and rebirth. I open up about breaking patterns, letting go of insidious coping mechanisms, reclaiming self-leadership, and the power of nervous system regulation in feminine evolution.   This is for the woman ready to meet her shadows, rise through devotion, and lead from embodied truth. Look out for upcoming episodes where I revisit Saturn's themes with more embodied integration. Timestamps 00:00 – Opening Transmission Claiming full-spectrum feminine leadership, orgasmic aliveness, and unapologetic self-expression. 01:52 – Context Behind the Recording Living off-grid, in Saturn Mahadasha + Sade Sati, and why this episode almost wasn’t published. 03:05 – Saturn's Leadership Initiation The cost of doing it alone, the need for sisterhood, and Saturn's invitation into embodied leadership. 08:42 – Birth of the Mastermind Why this journey inspired a 12-month container for self-leadership and feminine power. 09:52 – The Orgasmic Rocket Ship & Nervous System Mastery Blending sensual aliveness with structured expansion—leadership without burnout. 11:00 – Saturn Retrograde in Scorpio (Main Teaching) How karmic reckoning, discipline, and shadow work unlock deep transformation. 30:00 – Personal Story: Injury, Grief & Self-Parenting Breaking the body to break the pattern. The death of old coping strategies. Rising from the ashes. 57:00 – Inner Child, Forgiveness & Ancestral Compassion Meeting shame, holding love, and reclaiming power.

This is not your average sexual empowerment story. In this deeply personal episode, I share the unexpected journey of injuring myself during a self-pleasure practice, being diagnosed with Mycoplasma (specifically, Ureaplasma), and the spiral of shame and fear that followed, as well as the hormonal dysregulation this pointed to. This is a story about arousal literacy. The all too familiar experience you have when your body says “yes” whilst your nervous system screams “not yet.” It’s about reclaiming sovereignty when the very thing that once gave you life, your turn-on, feels like a betrayal. You’ll hear me reflect on: - The difference between regulated vs. dysregulated arousal - How pelvic tension, unprocessed grief, and overfunctioning play into sexual shutdown - The relationship between nervous system healing and cervical awakening - And the unexpected medicine of sexual rupture as a rite of passage This episode is part erotic memoir, part nervous system teaching, part spiritual transmission, and it’s a real-time unfolding of what it means to fuck yourself back to life... not in a performative way, but through profound honesty and repair. If you've ever felt confused by your body, terrified by your turn-on, or ashamed by your symptoms, this is for you. 00:00 Intro 04:40 The Erotic Spark & Dysregulated Arousal 11:58 Introducing (Phases 1 & 2) of the 3-phase Path to Orgasmic Sovereignty 22:27 Ancestral Integration + Real-time Alchemy 32:46 Introudcing the Mycoplasma STI + Regulated vs. Dysregulated Arousal 51:06 Female vs. Male Libido + Cyclical Arousal 60:00 Erotic Sovereignty + Holistic Dive into Erotic Self-Repair + Mycoplasma 67:38 Integration & Reclamation

In this raw, intimate solo episode, Catrina invites you into the sacred, taboo, and wildly illuminating chapter of her life as a professional dominatrix. Through erotic storytelling and soul-level reflections, she shares how sensual domination became the unexpected portal to reclaiming her power, boundaries, erotic truth, and capacity to lead—not just in scenes, but in love, life, and business. You'll hear: The moment she first felt the magnetic pull of financial domination How the Erotic Blueprint types became foundational tools for attunement, desire, and sacred kink play What the Energetic and Sensual blueprints taught her about presence, pacing, and healing trauma through subtle touch The truth about men who outsource intimacy—and why most are craving attuned feminine leadership, not performance How being a dominatrix helped her heal masculine wounds, communicate boundaries clearly, and reclaim intimacy on her own terms Why the dominatrix archetype became both a playground and a cage—and what she chose to embody after she left that world behind This episode is part memoir, part erotic education, and part initiation for any woman ready to integrate her shadows, reclaim her sensual voice, and lead with unapologetic truth.

In this raw backyard recording, I revisit season one of the show and the journey that unfolded as I unapologetically led with desire. What started as moments of “cringe” listening back, turned into a deep celebration of self-trust, erotic aliveness, and the art of letting life be mystery-led. I share how living on the Big Island opened me back into my feminine, how a fated encounter with Tejas (Sanskrit for “fire”) awakened a new chapter of reclamation, and how learning to walk with desire—without guaranteed outcomes—has shaped the leadership and intimacy I now embody. This episode is an invitation into the dance of feminine flow and masculine structure, of self-trust as the foundation for orgasmic aliveness, and of sovereignty as an identity that transcends the boxes the world projects onto us. If you’re ready to remember your essence, reclaim your power, and live life as art—this conversation is for you.

Step into a conversation that fuses sacred sexuality, sovereignty, and unapologetic success. In this 7-7 portal recording, Ana Gasol — womb-led business mentor, priestess of wealth, and former Cambridge scientist — shares how she transformed personal challenges into a pleasure-powered business and leadership path. We explore cult recovery, reclaiming power from the shadow, the art of pleasure-led manifestation, and why the same principles that spark cervical orgasms can also ignite quantum leaps in business.   **Correction** Ana's Retreat in Peru is happening in September. (AFTER Living Brave Live)! There's still time to join :)   Instagram: http://www.instagram.com/ana_gasol Ana's "Cosmic Wombs" Podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/cosmic-wombs/id1670419717 Living Brave Live: Use my affiliate link to purchase a ticket! https://livingbravelive.com/event?am_id=catrina442

What does it mean to truly hold the expansion?  When life shapeshifts, identities fall away, and your next level calls you forward? In this powerful episode, I sit down with Jakob Gricar.  Trauma-informed coach, retreat leader, and masculine mirror for a raw, resonant conversation on nervous system alchemy, masculine integrity, identity death, and leading through chaos. We explore: • What women really crave in masculine presence • How to stay anchored when life pulls you into the unknown • Shame, co-regulation, and healing in community • Rewriting your relationship with wealth, purpose, and power • The inner game of character development and why it matters more than results This episode is for the woman who’s expanding fast and craving sacred structure to hold her rise. For the leader ready to stop performing and start anchoring in truth. For the one who knows her next evolution requires deep surrender and embodied masculine support. Let’s drop in. ____ Jakob Gricar is a trauma-informed transformational coach who blends a decade of mastery in somatic work, internal family systems, ontological coaching, NLP, and CBT and other modalities to catalyze profound inner change. From high-impact entrepreneurs to people stepping into their purpose, he guides clients to regulate their nervous systems, dismantle limiting identities, and remember the truth beneath the noise. His journey began at 13, when recovering from a chronic illness ignited a lifelong devotion to spiritual practice. That spark carried him from homelessness to near-death initiations, yogic studies in India, deep plant-medicine studies in the Amazon, and the creation of retreat centers in Guatemala and Mexico. Today, Jakob works with world-renowned coaches, mentors other business leaders, leads Vortex Retreats and runs a multi-six-figure online program. ______ Website: https://jakobgricar.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/jakobgricar/ Private Podcast: app.helloaudio.fm/feed/0e67bdac-f779-4b45-9495-ddf6fe234d83/signup