Bag Lady: Happy & Homeless By Realady

It's still the early morning night of June 6, 2020! In my van sitting in the driveway. Just some hours pass a 24hr time limit before it's time to film the video for my latest single, "Pussy Powerr". The one main reason I was so disappointed. I wanted to get some adequate rest, so I don't look worn down, tired, fatigued, etc. I like my work to be as polished as can be when it come to filming. Once it's out, it's out. I simply refused for anything to stop my drive, my joy, my shine, and my grind. Just because I'm homeless? Wtf! I could care less of what anyone thought about me and my situation. Folks wrote me off the face of this earth years ago when I was a young girl. I didn't say little girl, cause there was nothing little about me. I was big for my age. Just for that alone, I was judged on everything I did and what one saw. My skin had to thicken up for more reasons than one. So with that being said, there's not too much of anything left that can hurt my feelings. Yet the desire to want better, cause you refuse to be bitter. I refuse to allow toxicity to clutter or have any control over my life. There's sacrifices that we all have to make in life. This was one of mines, to be homeless. It's one of the best decisions I've have to make. Although it was a tough decision to make, I've come out a better person. Still a work in process, however, dealing with the pain in my life has allowed me to strongly progress. I made a promise to smile through it all, no matter what it is. The battle is not mines... It's the Lord's 🙏🏽

It's still June 6th 2020. It's still well over midnight and I'm sitting in my van, praying that someone would finally come to open the door. So as I sit and reminisce on the good things that life brings, I refuse not to complain. Just brainstorming and sharing my moment in truth. I realize long time ago that I'm a people's person. Something my father always told me when dealing with people you'll always be disappointed especially if you depend on them or even have expectations of them. You'll always find yourself being disappointed. So I learned the hard way about being attached to people. I didn't realize that I was attaching myself to them in all actuality I was which left me disappointed at the end of the day. It left me with some hurt that cause a little pain, in which I allowed to succumb me. I just remember my mother always telling me and reminding me because she knew how big my heart was or how big it is. My mother always told me, not to ever expect back in return what I've given to someone else. Meaning don't expect for people to give you with you giving them in return. Your blessings will always come from God, not from those who you necessarily give to. Don't look for your blessings and people. God will place those in your life who will bless you, you don't have to look for them. God will place those necessary in your life. Your blessings come from God, always look to him. So throughout my life I've not looked for my blessings in return from anyone in the flesh. However, we in the flesh can take the people around us for granted. I've been there, I've done it, and it has been done to me. So who could I be mad at right now? What I do know, and have been told, as I've been worn before! What you put into this universe, will very much come back around to you! Over the years with both my parents gone, I had to reflect numerous of times, many days many weeks and months throughout all the years of my life, back on what they taught me showed me and told me because when I say they touched on every aspect of my life and which I've gone through while they were alive and now that they are even gone; I have no more of that now. Times have changed so much I can barely find anyone else like them around in today's time. So all I have left too look to and up to and depend on is God. For those who have been raised by their mother father or both parents in the home knows that no one else in this world besides the love of God will love you more than those two a mother and a father. I was very fortunate to have them and I still thank God for them today. And I had to realize that if I was able to let go and let God have them as they are his own. I can let go and let God do his work in my life. I had to get out of my own way trying to please other people that was not always pleasing to God. I had to get out of my own way of blocking my own blessings focusing on the wrong things. It was time to let go of the things that I was connected to because I had become attached. And as I could see things unfolding, I felt the change that was needed coming over me. Accepting the facts that I needed to change. Accepting the fact that I am being My own worst enemy. Accepting the fact that I need to stop and think to love myself more so that I could live a greater life. No one is to blame for what I had to go through. Things of the unimportance of my past was just lingering around because I allowed it. My mother always told me life would catch up with me, till this day my mother has not told me anything wrong or steered me in the wrong direction. When I say mama used to say. My mother told me one day she'd be in heaven smiling down while I have to go through some things. When I tell you my mother is no longer here in the flesh and she still nothing but the truth. In God I trust!

It's still the June 6, 2020 passed the midnight hour with dawn awaiting a new day for it's light to shine. Oh how I thank God for every day He awakens me. This particular night I really wanted to get some home rest so I would be rejuvenated for the music video we had to film within the next 48hrs or so. So I'm here sitting in my van in the driveway of the home where I paid to lay, finding myself still locked out, resulted in me counting my blessings. Thinking to myself, why complain. Count your blessings and give your battles to God. The battle was not mines, nor was it about me. Realizing it's all about my God and what He will do. I gave my battles to Him making the sacrifice of my life to date. I was upset with myself for wasting alot of my time and energy on the wrong things, simply just continuously taking things for granted, not focusing on soley what was important. I was blaming myself for not picking up the phone just to call and check on a childhood friend, as he simply and kindly asked me too. Just because I was going through what I was going through, thinking I had time to get myself together then I'll call. Well that didn't happen, he actually killed himself before my situation got better. Learning about his death from his wife Liz, feeling a little bit of comfort just from hearing her voice alone. But when she made the statement, "He talked about you guys everyday", the words broke me up inside. I reminded with her, yet to this day I don't think she even knows herself how that tore me up inside to hear her say that. At this point, I knew it was out of my control. All I could do at this point is try to console her as much as possible over the phone that day. She even remembered the last day Parnell and I spoke. That's all I could think about, and our childhood memories that he continued to thrive on until his untimely death. I asked for forgiveness for not keeping a simple promise to him. I made no promise, yet I gave my word that I would call to keep in touch. I failed him. At least I thought I did. I promised his wife Liz that I will keep his memory alive as long as I live. Say his name "Parnell McGriggs". This segment is dedicated to you. You are loved. You are missed. You will be remembered. May your soul rest well inside the gates of Heaven. I pray your soul is rested.

It was June 6, 2020, just a few nights before shooting, "Pussy Powerr" video, so not only was I trying to get in the house to get some rest. I wanted to catch up on some as well. So I'm just sitting in my car parked in the driveway of the home where I was renting space to live for the time being. The event of the hurricane I'm speaking of was not in year 2018, it was actually the year is actually mid-2017 that I'm speaking of (August/September) maybe. Just to keep on track of the timeline of events. Stay tuned for more parts to episode 3...

It was 12:34am., going into Saturday morning, June 6, 2020. It had been a week since renting out space so that I could have a content place to bathe and rest my head. Only to find out this particular night, I would not be getting in. I'm really disappointed at the fact, because in just 1-day, we have to shoot, Pussy Powerr" video. I was all excited up until this point. I did not want to be tired and/or fatigued in any way. Definitely not good for film. I bought cried myself to sleep.

It happens to be a rainy night May 25, 2020. Realady is in her van all tucked in tight awaiting her sleep 4:22am, before next day break. Between Episode 1 & 2, Realady was able to find shelter here and there, but not on a daily, consecutive basis. It was the beginning of the pandemic. She actually felt more safe, being back in her van. Where you can watch it on YouTube. All I wanted and felt I needed was my peace. Knowing if I go crazy, I'll damn sure be no earthly to myself, my daughter, or anyone else for that matter. It's not easy being strong sometimes, but you must do it. Just do it is what I say. Practice makes perfect. Keep your eyes on the prize. Don't ever give up. Giving up is not an option, nor is it ever a lingering thought of mine. Understand that there will be some bad days. However, it's up to you to make sure that your good outweigh your bad. You want good energy, it's kinetic and potential. In other words, you can either be a good vibrations, so you can feel the vibration. No matter what, where, and who! You want good energy, you have to be that energy. I had to learn and I'm still learning that you can NOT allow people to consume your energy. I had to stop doing it myself. Realizing later on that, I was attaching myself to people. You know the saying that goes, "People come in your life for a reason. It's either for a season or a lifetime", it's true. Life will definitely show you and teach you lessons from experience. The best teacher. The reason why we as people need not say what we won't do until they have to wear certain shoes. So yes, reality set in on me with that one. It was a phrase that I know now. I took lightly. So I say these things to say, I've learned so much more about life, I thought I knew. I learned more about myself, more concerned with my needs, not so much of what I wants. I needed to find myself again and that day was approaching. It had been 2-months since sounding the alarm about the Corona/Covid-19 Virus. The very first night curfew had hit, I was offered a kind gesture. So I had a place to go rest my head, clean and wash my ass a little more conveniently. I didn't discuss my situation much, with but just one person. Sleeping in parking lots, going about my daily activities like it was the normal thing to do. It is nothing I ever want to get used to. People began to put something together with all the whatnots, clothes/shoes, essential items, etc. I once was embarrassed at first, but that didn't last long the way my confidence is set up. I come from good energy, in which I'm very fortunate of that. It definitely helps with being a loner. No matter what happens to you, you have to make sure that you got you. I was slipping, but it took that to happen to get my full undivided attention. Always been driven. Driven more now than ever and through it all, I get to glorify God in the name of Jesus. Nobody will ever love you more than God. Go to Him, during the good times and the bad. He will not forsake you. There will always be good days and bad days. Somebody is always going through worse than you. Just as well as there are some, better off than you. That makes nobody better than you. That makes us no better than anybody else. As people, we just have to do better. Better shall follow!!!

My life changed March 15, 2015. That is when I began to take my career more serious than ever before. God had given me another chance to live, after sparing me so many other times. I was losing essentials the very moment the situation happened, which lead to me being homeless a few years later. So last year in January of 2020, I made the choice myself to be homeless on the street, being that I had a vehicle to sleep in. As long as I was able to live my dream on a daily basis, I promised myself not to allow what I was going through to stop me. You'll have to watch the episodes to come to find out how I managed to deal with these matters of life. Don't you ever give up. It's not by luck. Life is a total blessings.

Ain't no shame in Realady's world when it comes to being homeless. She remained happy while doing it. You get to see the beginning of the worst stage. Realady began to feel like her welcome had run out in Florida. Since she owes IRS, it's been been a little difficult getting her own place again. With the same token, Realady solely put her faith in God, taking a leap of faith. She continued diving into her career, which is the main thing that made her happy at the end of the day. Hanging out with friends was no longer apart of the norm for Realady. Taking care of business and building those new/existing business relationship became the life to live for Realady. She always took her business serious, this time around something was a little difficult. Only if you could see the small changes developing. Realady began to notice with excitement. She saw a vision from a deep/dark thought. Saying to herself, "Thank God for strength". So with that being said before moving right along to Episode #1. Realady has a saying that goes: "I don't depend on M-A-N or J-O-B! I depend on G-O-D. She isn't looking for no sympathy and she doesn't want anyone to feel bad for her. Get ready to see Realady in some of her deepest and darkest moments as reality hits hard.

February 25th, was the day I began filming myself dealing with life's most daring challenges, I've ever been faced with in life. This is an introduction of that documentary. I'll release the name of the documentary upon releasing the first episode. I will inform you that, I was once embarrassed to let anyone know exactly what I had to face on a daily basis. You'll see and hear about some of the issues I was faced with everyday. You will see how I dealt with the adversities, in which I'm not the first, nor the last the will go through this, that may have been through this, or still going through it, just like I am today. Yet, I've come a long way from where I was last year around this time. I was lost mentally. June 22, 2020 was the day that I realized how lost I actually was, simultaneously finding myself all over again at the same exact time. For it to be just minutes later, that I receive a tragic phone call, that would've made me lose my mind, if it had of been at least a year prior or so to the date. The last 2-yrs have been very trying. Me knowing how good my God is, although I'm going through rough-tough times, I still remember how powerful God is. With all that had been going on in my life, one thing after another. Not fully understanding why was going through what I was going through. God was the only thing and the only one who I knew to lean solely on. I knew He had all these things happening to prepare me for something. I can tell you this, I'm more stronger than I've ever been. I also knew that I had to really go through something. I knew at some point I had to make some sacrifices. God has spared my life many times. I always dream big from a child. My dreams felt so real as a child, that I held onto my dreams for dear life. I will tell anybody, find something you love doing. I knew from a child what I loved to do. Just do it. Don't let life do you. Live life to the fullest, no matter what. Don't ever give up on God nor yourself. I don't care how bad it gets. Trust me it got bad for me. You will see in the documentary. Not only will you hear and see what I went through. You will also see how I dealt with all I had to go through. Yes, I had to go through it. Yes, my Mom always told me, one day I will listen and she will be in Heaven looking down saying, "See I told you, you don't listen"! Yes indeed, my head was harder than a rock I believe at times growing up. My Dad would constantly remind me of how one day, a hard head is going to make a soft-ass for me. When I tell you my parents never lied. The devil is a liar. Cause I've been learning my lesson. Lessons I should've took heed to over 2-decades ago. But no, when you think you got it all together. Then BOOM!!! Everything crumbles to pieces. I began losing everything, even thought I was losing my mind at times. There were times I was losing my mind. That's when I realized nobody can help me, but God. God has brought me out of some storms before and He always made it better. So I know He will bring me completely out of this storm. This I know. He is slowly but surely doing it now. However, I'm mentally in a better place. The physical being of it, has gotten better. Sincerely, believe it or not, my mental health meant more to me than my physical health. You will learn why l say that later in the documentary. I'm so grateful to still be standing today and to be able to share my story. It's uplifting, inspiring, and it will move you in some courageous way, shape, or form. None of us are alone. There will always be someone off worse than you. There will always be someone else off better than you. I will leave at that. I thank God for strength and understanding to tell my story. I'm not the person I used to be, although I'm constantly striving to still become a better me. I've changed some things I used to do. I've also changed how I do some things now. I'm still in the process of changing for the good and the better. At the same time, I pray this helps someone else.