Bitch Is A Bad Word: A Domestic Violence Podcast on Healing and Empowerment

⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode contains real accounts of domestic violence, coercive control, stalking, knife attack, and self-defense. Listener discretion strongly advised.Terra Newell and her sister desperately tried to get her mom, Debra Newell, to leave her stepfather. Sometimes it worked, but only temporarily at best. Debra would always go back. Then on August 20, 2016, Terra was ambushed and stabbed by her stepfather—the infamous conman, abuser, and psychopath John Meehan, known worldwide as “Dirty John.” Despite her injuries, Terra fought back, wrestled the knife away, and killed her attacker in a desperate act of self-defense. Her courage ended the terrifying cycle of abuse that threatened her, her mother, and her sister.The Dirty John story is a global true crime sensation—first reported by the LA Times, then adapted into a top-charting podcast, a Bravo TV series starring Eric Bana and Connie Britton, and multiple documentaries. Unfortunately, these stories have never been told by those who lived it. The podcast and TV show were based on the article, not on conversations with John's victims. A miscarriage of justice.Terra is here today with us telling her story, in her own words. And it's powerful. She is a true "Baddie", empowered by a glowing personality emoldened by wit and humor that is a necessity for someone that has survived multiple traumas and her own domestic abuse and violence relationships. Yet she and her sister watched helplessly as their empowered, successful mother was love-bombed and manipulated into marriage by a master manipulator. Like so many caught in cycles of narcissistic abuse and coercive control, they struggled to convince their mom to escape before it was too late.In this episode, Terra exposes the red flags she saw early, the isolation tactics John Meehan used, and the terrifying escalation that led to a life-or-death confrontation. She reveals what it’s really like to be trapped by a psychopath, how she and her sister tried to fight back, and what it took to survive a near-fatal attack. We are very thankful Terra chose to share her story with us.About Terra NewellAt 25, Terra survived and killed serial predator John Meehan—aka Dirty John—changing her life forever. She’s now a leading survivor advocate, ethical podcasting coach, trauma-informed yoga teacher, and founder of a nonprofit for domestic violence survivors. Terra has been featured on Dateline, People Magazine, Women of Impact, and more, using her voice to raise awareness about coercive control, narcissistic abuse, and survivor empowerment.🎧 Listen to Terra’s podcast: TERRA’S BADDIES CLUBNeed Help?If you or someone you love is experiencing domestic violence, call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or visit thehotline.org.What Our Besties WIll Learn in This Survivor’s Guide:How abusers use charm, lies, and love bombing to gain controlThe warning signs and tactics of coercive control that tear families apartWhat it’s really like to be targeted by a psychopath inside your own homeThe moment Terra fought back—and her journey of trauma recovery and healingPractical steps for escaping domestic violence and reclaiming your powerTerra Newell, Dirty John, domestic violence survivor story, true crime, narcissistic abuse, coercive control, psychopath survivor, self-defense, domestic abuse recovery, toxic relationships, love bombing, manipulation tactics, escaping domestic violence, warning signs of abuse, survivor empowermentListen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

She thought she married a charming, successful man. Instead, she ended up trapped in a controlling, emotionally abusive marriage that nearly broke her.In this episode of Bitch Is A Bad Word, journalist and divorce coach Amy Polacko opens up about her own experience with a covert narcissist—a partner who manipulated, isolated, and gaslit her behind closed doors. She explains how smart, accomplished women like her often find themselves stuck in relationships that look perfect on the outside but feel like walking on eggshells inside.Amy helps women spot the warning signs of abuse most people miss—especially when there are no bruises. From love bombing to emotional control, this conversation dives deep into the red flags that survivors often don’t recognize until it's too late.Whether you’re wondering:- “Why does my partner blame me for everything?”- “Is it really abuse if there’s no violence?”- “Why do I feel trapped, scared, and exhausted?”This episode will help you name what’s happening, understand the tactics of abusers, and realize you’re not alone.🔊 Trigger Warning: This episode discusses emotional abuse, control, manipulation, gaslighting, narcissistic relationships, and trauma.📞 If you need immediate help, call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233.ABOUT AMY POLACKOAmy is a divorce coach and award-winning journalist who survived a narcissist nightmare. She empowers women to be the CEO of their own divorce. Amy has coached hundreds of women in toxic relationships and writes for national news outlets about coercive control, domestic abuse, divorce, online dating and singlehood. Her work has been featured in HuffPost, The Washington Post, Newsweek, NBC News THINK, The Independent, New York Observer and Ms. magazine. She co-authored the groundbreaking book FRAMED: Women in the Family Court Underworld with Dr. Christine Cocchiola which exposes the gender bias in our family court system (www.narcfreepress.com). Learn more about Amy at www.freedomwarrior.info and on Instagram @freedomwarriortribeListen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

In Part 2 of Lynn’s story, we explore a chilling truth many survivors face: the abuse doesn’t stop when the relationship ends. It just moves to the courtroom.Lynn’s ex didn’t just gaslight and control her at home—he took that manipulation into family court, painting himself as the victim, filing false reports, and using the legal system to financially drain and emotionally torture her.In this episode of Bitch Is a Bad Word, Lynn shares:How her ex used false CPS claims and restraining orders to gain powerWhat it’s like to be revictimized by the family court systemHow legal abuse becomes a weapon for narcissistsThe emotional toll of being trapped in a system that doesn’t believe youIf you’ve ever felt like the courts weren’t protecting you—or were actively being used against you—this episode will speak directly to your experience.🛑 Trigger Warning: Topics include family court abuse, false accusations, custody battles, and post-separation legal control.ABOUT LYNNNow a speaker and advocate with the National Domestic Violence Hotline’s Storyteller Collective and Advisory Council, Lynn uses her voice to help others see the red flags sooner and find the courage to get out.If you’re stuck in a cycle of leaving and returning, this story will help you feel seen—and show you that you're not alone.⚠️ Trigger Warning: Topics include emotional abuse, trauma bonding, gaslighting, and the emotional aftermath of leaving an abusive relationship.📞 If you need immediate help, call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233.domestic abuse survivor storyreproductive coercion podcasttrauma bonding and abusestrangulation warning signsintimate partner violenceemotional abuse survivorescaping domestic violencecoercive control in relationshipssurvivor stories podcastNational Domestic Violence HotlineB!tch Is A Bad Word: A Podcast On Domestic Abuse is a podcast about identifying and navigating your way through and out of Domestic Violence and Domestic Abuse, hosted by a survivor of Domestic Abuse.Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

In this episode of Bitch Is a Bad Word, Stephanie Strickland shares a story so many women will recognize—even if they don’t yet have the words for it.She thought she had the life she wanted: a husband, a home, a child. But behind closed doors, things weren’t adding up. Her husband controlled the money, twisted the truth, and left her questioning her own reality. There were no bruises. But there was damage.Stephanie takes us through the confusing fog of emotional manipulation, financial control, betrayal, and isolation. She opens up about the terrifying moment she realized she was not safe, and how long it took her to finally break free.If you’ve ever felt like something was wrong but couldn’t quite explain it—this episode is for you.⚠️ Trigger Warning: Topics include emotional manipulation, control, trauma bonds, heartbreak, and toxic relationship dynamics.📞 If you or someone you know is in danger, call The National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233 or text START to 88788.Stephanie Strickland is a Dallas, Texas native, an award-winning and best-selling author, and a sought-after motivational speaker. Stephanie is a survivor of domestic violence who passionately spends her time advocating for victims and survivors of abuse. When she is not busy writing award winning books, and appearing on podcasts, she is sharing her inspiring story with others at speaking events.Stephanie believes that by openly sharing her life, removing her mask, and walking in her truth Stephanie is showing women you don’t have to live in the shame of your past. Through her encouraging words Stephanie is showing us how to overcome our insecurities, our fears and seek the life God has promised us. She continuously demonstrates how living a life with self-acceptance, patience and faith can lead to a life that is thriving and fulfilling.Stephanie is a God believer and is highly active in her church, where she is a facilitator over a women’s class, and is a part of many other ministries. To connect with Stephanie please see the links below.www.stephaniedstrickland.comInstagram - @iamsdstricklandFacebook - @StephanieDStrickWHAT YOU'LL HEAR- The subtle signs that something wasn’t right- How abusers weaponize religion and family expectations- What it feels like to question your own memory- Financial control and secret spending- How to finally listen to your gut—and act on it- The truth about abuse that leaves no physical scarsStephanie’s story is one of heartbreak, resilience, and waking up to the truth.Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

In this episode of Bitch Is a Bad Word, we speak with Sara Davison—divorce coach, author, and survivor—about something many people face but don’t know how to name: being stuck in a relationship that slowly chips away at your confidence, independence, and sense of self.Sara explains how control can look like love, how you start ignoring red flags, and how to finally break free—even when you still care about the person. This episode is for anyone feeling confused, trapped, or like they’ve “lost themselves” in a relationship.You don’t need bruises to be in danger. If you're constantly questioning yourself, feeling small, or walking on eggshells—this is your sign.🎙️ Topics Covered:How control and manipulation can feel like loveWhy you might stay even when you know something’s wrongHow to get clarity when you're emotionally overwhelmedThe truth about trauma bonds and emotional confusionSteps to let go of someone who keeps hurting youWhat a healthy relationship actually looks and feels likeSara brings wisdom, warmth, and actionable advice for anyone trying to navigate a breakup—or even just trying to see clearly.⚠️ Trigger Warning: Topics include emotional manipulation, control, trauma bonds, heartbreak, and toxic relationship dynamics.📞 If you or someone you know is in danger, call The National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233 or text START to 88788.Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

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In this powerful episode of B!tch is a Bad Word, host Lindsay sits down with Dr. Christine Cocchiola—researcher, advocate, and expert in coercive control—to expose the form of domestic abuse that leaves no bruises but devastates lives. Together, they unpack how coercive control erodes autonomy, uses children as weapons, and creates “death by a thousand paper cuts” for survivors.Dr. Cocchiola shares insights from decades of research and lived experience, explaining why survivors often blame themselves, how abusers manipulate family court and parenting, and what protective parents can do to help their children heal. From understanding trauma bonds to recognizing reactive abuse, this conversation offers validation, clarity, and practical tools for anyone trapped in the cycle of psychological control.About Dr. Christine Cocchiola:Dr. Christine M. Cocchiola, DSW, LCSW is a Coercive Control Educator, Researcher & Survivor. She is a college professor teaching social work for the last 20 years and a social justice advocate for a local domestic violence agency, since the age of 19. Her expertise is in the areas of coercive control and the traumatic experiences of adult and child victims, diligently supporting these vulnerable populations. Dr. C., a Founding Member of the International Coercive Control Conference and a Board Member of the National Coalition Against Domestic Violence, has supported codifying coercive control, writing numerous policy briefs supporting these efforts.Guest Information:Website - https://coercivecontrolconsulting.com/ Instagram - @dr.cocchiola_coercivecontrolTwitter - @coercivecontrolIf you’ve ever questioned whether words, manipulation, and control “count” as abuse, this episode is your answer. You’re not crazy—and you’re not alone.If you or someone you know needs immediate help, call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233.This episode is for anyone who has asked:- signs of a controlling relationship- how to know if my relationship is abusive- emotional abuse in relationships- when love feels like control- why does my partner put me down- gaslighting and manipulation in relationships- trauma bonding explained- am I the problem in my relationship- co-parenting with a toxic ex- raising kids with an abusive partner- why leaving an abuser is so hard- what is coercive control in relationships (paired with plain terms)- feeling broken but no bruises- how to heal from an abusive relationship- my partner calls me names — is it abuse?Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

In this raw and emotional episode of Bitch Is a Bad Word, survivor Loren Gray shares her powerful story of escaping a covertly abusive relationship while raising a young child. Loren’s story sheds light on the often-missed signs of coercive control, financial abuse, emotional manipulation, and the deep trauma that can exist even without physical violence.What begins as a seemingly perfect relationship quickly spirals into isolation, financial control, sexual coercion, and deep emotional harm—all under the guise of love and support. Loren explains how abuse doesn't always look the way we expect, and how victims can lose their voice long before they recognize they're being silenced.⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode includes discussions of emotional abuse, sexual coercion, postpartum trauma, gaslighting, and parenting while surviving domestic violence.🎙️ Topics Covered:Why coercive control is more dangerous than it looksWhat financial abuse really looks like in a relationshipNavigating new motherhood while being isolated by a partnerHow abusers use "protection" and “fixing” as manipulationThe moment Loren realized she was no longer herself—and how she began to reclaim her powerFinding healing and purpose through sharing her storyLoren’s strength and vulnerability shine through as she describes what it took to escape, heal, and build a new life for herself and her child.If you’ve ever typed into Google:“he changed after I got pregnant”“controlling partner during pregnancy”“abuse while pregnant”“relationship changed after baby”“felt trapped during pregnancy”...this episode is for youWe’ve got your back, Bestie. And your second (or third) act.If you or someone you know needs immediate help, call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233.ABOUT LORENLoren Greye is an author, solo mother, and creative healer helping women turn their after into their most powerful chapter yet.After experiencing emotional abuse and the collapse of the life she thought she’d have, Loren rebuilt everything—from the inside out. Through writing, motherhood, and intentional inner work, she found her way back to herself.Now she helps other women do the same. Whether through reflective journaling, storytelling, or creative tools that support emotional recovery, Loren’s work guides women in processing their pain, reclaiming their voice, and designing a life that feels aligned and fully their own.Instagram (handle: @lorengreye.after)Amazon: Till Death We Do NotAmazon: In This Body5-day journal: Awaken The Knowingcoercive control survivorfinancial abuse in relationshipsemotional abuse and gaslightingpostpartum and domestic violencesexual coercion in marriageparenting through traumaescaping emotional abusemotherhood and abuseLoren Gray survivor storyreal stories of domestic abuseListen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What if the person you love slowly takes away your freedom — not with fists, but with control over your money, your choices, and your self-worth?In this episode of Bitch Is A Bad Word, Jared Melo shares his story of how emotional manipulation and financial control kept him trapped in a toxic relationship. From paychecks being taken, to credit ruined, to being told he was “crazy,” Jared walks us through the everyday red flags survivors often miss until it’s too late.We unpack:How abusers control money to keep you stuck (“I’ll take care of the bills, don’t worry about it”)Why financial abuse often doesn’t look like abuse at firstThe shame and silence survivors feel when they can’t leaveThe turning point when Jared realized this wasn’t “love,” it was controlHow rebuilding self-trust and community helped him escapeThis episode is for anyone who has ever asked themselves:“Why can’t I leave if he doesn’t hit me?”“Is it normal for my partner to take my paycheck?”“Am I crazy, or is this actually abuse?”“signs of controlling partner”“is it abuse if my husband controls the money”“how do I leave a toxic marriage with no money”“my wife controls everything I buy”“financial abuse in marriage examples”“how to tell if I’m being gaslit”“emotional abuse signs in relationship”If that’s you — you’re not alone. You’re not crazy. And there is a way out.If you or someone you know needs immediate help, call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233.Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What happens when your partner controls every dollar you spend, monitors your bank account, or sabotages your ability to work? This is financial abuse — one of the most powerful tools an abuser uses to trap you in a relationship.Produced in partnership with The National Domestic Violence Hotline for National Financial Abuse Awareness Day, this episode of Bitch Is A Bad Word dives deep into how financial control works, why it’s so effective, and how survivors can begin to break free.Lindsay sits down with survivor, activist, and educator Neisha Himes , who bravely shares how her partner used money to isolate her, limit her choices, and make leaving feel impossible. From being denied access to her own paycheck to having every purchase questioned, Neisha’s story shows how financial abuse often hides in plain sight — and why it’s just as damaging as physical violence.Trigger Warning: For those who have experienced or witnessed abuse our conversation could be triggering. We want you to take care of you. If you need to step away or pause the episode please do so. If you need support and want to talk to a live advocate please call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-SAFE or chat live at thehotline.org.Inside this episode:What financial abuse really looks like (beyond “he won’t let me spend money”)How abusers use money to keep you trapped — even after you leaveSmall, strategic steps to regain control of your finances safelyWhy secrecy, isolation, and shame make financial abuse so hard to spotResources from The Hotline to help you protect yourselfAbout Neisha:Neisha Christine Himes is an award winning and nationally recognized activist and motivational speaker. After leaving a 5 year long abusive and toxic relationship, Neisha decided to use her harrowing experience to help other domestic violence survivors. She began telling her story through her gift of spoken word poetry—performing at open mics and various events where she met and bonded with other survivors.She also volunteered at a local domestic violence shelter where she created a journaling group to encourage self-expression and healing through writing. She later became certified as a Human Trafficking Victim Advocate with the Virginia Beach Justice Initiative (n/k/a FreeKind). Then in 2016, Neisha founded G.R.O.W. (Girls Recognizing Our Worth) Foundation to assist survivors with rebuilding their lives after abuse. The non-profit organization has since helped countless survivors get back on their feet and provided them hope in their journey towards restoration.If you’ve ever wondered, “Why can’t I leave? I don’t have my own money,” this episode is for you.Disclaimer: This episode is sponsored by the National Domestic Violence Hotline to shine a light on lesser-known, yet pervasive, forms of abuse. The views and opinions expressed reflect those of the speakers and do not necessarily reflect the views or positions of The Hotline or their funders, including the Department of Health and Human Services.financial abuse signs, partner controls my money, abusive relationship and money, money control in relationships, can’t leave abusive partner no money, how to leave without money, partner sabotages my job, economic abuse, signs of financial control, relationship red flags about money, money manipulation by partner, financial abuse survivor story📞 If you or someone you know is experiencing abuse, call The National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or text “START” to 88788.Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What really happens when you try couples therapy with a narcissist — and why it can make things worse? If you're in couples counseling, you NEED to listen to this episode!In this unfiltered conversation, Dr. Jamie Zuckerman (“Dr. Z”), a nationally recognized psychologist and narcissistic abuse expert, joins Lindsay to break down how abusers use therapy, gift-giving, and everyday moments to keep control. She explains coercive control in plain language, how abuse escalates over time, and why leaving is the most dangerous (but most empowering) step.If you’ve ever searched “Why does my partner track me?” “Is couples therapy safe with an abusive partner?” or “How do I plan my exit without them knowing?” — this episode gives you real-world strategies to protect yourself.Inside This Episode:- Why therapy with a narcissist often backfires- How gift-giving and “grand gestures” become tools for control- What coercive control really means and how to spot it- Why abuse escalates when you stop reacting- The ultimate goal of a narcissistic abuser (it’s darker than you think)- Dr. Z’s practical, step-by-step safety plan for leaving safelyDr. Z also shares the Bestie Toolkit — small, daily actions to reclaim your clarity, document abuse patterns, and protect your sanity while planning your escape.Visit Dr. Z for coaching at https://www.drjaimezuckerman.com/ and check out her podcast NEXT UP: NARCISSISM WITH DR. Z on Apple Podcasts and Spotify.📞 If you need immediate help, call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233 or text START to 88788.This podcast is for you if you're asking questions such as:- therapy with a narcissist- is couples therapy safe with abusive partner- coercive control examples- why does my partner track me- gift giving from narcissist- how to leave an abusive relationship safely- narcissist exit strategy- documenting abuse for court#TherapyWithANarcissist #CoerciveControl #NarcissisticAbuseRecovery #LeavingAnAbuser #SafetyPlanning #DocumentingAbuse #BreakTheTraumaBond #GaslightingAwareness #ToxicRelationshipHelp #SurvivorStrong #domesticabuseawarenessB!tch Is A Bad Word: A Podcast On Domestic Abuse is a podcast about identifying and navigating your way through and out of Domestic Violence and Domestic Abuse, hosted by a survivor of Domestic Abuse.Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

In this powerful and emotional episode of Bitch Is a Bad Word, survivor and advocate Lynn shares her harrowing journey through childhood trauma, reproductive coercion, intimate partner violence, emotional abuse, and sexual assault—including surviving strangulation and rape.Lynn bravely recounts her experience growing up with a compulsive gambler father, enduring multiple abusive relationships, and navigating the life-threatening consequences of reproductive coercion before eventually escaping a cycle of violence and finding healing. She also explains how trauma bonding, coercive control, and systemic failures kept her trapped—and how she finally broke free.Trigger Warning: This episode discusses childhood trauma, domestic abuse, reproductive coercion, strangulation, sexual assault, and emotional abuse.Topics Covered:- The psychological and financial impact of compulsive gambling- How trauma bonding keeps survivors in abusive relationships- What reproductive coercion really looks like (and why it’s rarely prosecuted)- The terrifying warning signs of strangulation and intimate partner rape- Why love bombing and control often hide behind “soulmate” language- Breaking generational trauma and healing through therapy and advocacyLynn is now a speaker and advocate affiliated with the National Domestic Violence Hotline’s Storyteller Collective and Advisory Council. Connect with her via Instagram or LinkedIn.We’ve got your back, Bestie. And your second (or third) act.If you or someone you know needs immediate help, please reach out to the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

In this powerful and emotional podcast episode, Lindsay welcomes advocate and survivor Courtney Gilmartin to unpack the insidious nature of coercive control, post-separation abuse, and the long game survivors must play to reclaim their lives.Courtney shares her deeply personal story of entering an abusive relationship at 19, marrying young, and eventually recognizing the subtle but devastating patterns of emotional, psychological, and financial abuse she endured. Though never physically attacked in a traditional sense, Courtney powerfully illustrates how intimidation, surveillance, isolation, sabotage, and manipulation are all forms of DV.The conversation dives into:- How abusers maintain control post-divorce through litigation, parenting schedules, and even children’s clothing.- Why strategic emotional detachment and planning are essential before leaving.- The importance of journaling, building a trauma-informed support team, and understanding the legal system’s limitations.- The psychological warfare abusers wage through child custody manipulation, withholding support, and weaponizing family court.- How to protect your kids and maintain your sanity while navigating high-conflict co-parenting.- Why survivors need to stop blaming themselves and start reclaiming their narratives.Courtney also provides tactical guidance for survivors still inside abusive relationships, including:- The power of documenting abuse- How to prepare for a safe and strategic exit- What to prioritize in custody agreements- Why small wins in family court can shift the power dynamicThroughout the episode, Lindsay and Courtney bond over shared experiences, emphasize the importance of support networks, and remind listeners that leaving is just the beginning of a longer battle — but one worth fighting.We’ve got your back, Bestie. And your second (or third) act.If you or someone you know needs immediate help, please reach out to the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What happens when you accidentally launch a podcast about narcissistic abuse and end up becoming a lifeline for survivors around the world?In this unfiltered episode of Bitch Is a Bad Word, Lindsay sits down with the OG, Brandon Chadwick, host of the Narcissist Apocalypse podcast. What started as a comedy experiment turned into six years of holding space for survivors of narcissistic and emotional abuse, giving them a platform to reclaim their stories and heal out loud.Brandon shares what he’s learned from thousands of survivor conversations: the patterns, the red flags, the trauma bonds, and the slow unraveling of reality that keeps people stuck for years. He opens up about the responsibility of telling these stories, the healing power of community, and why your voice — yes, yours — matters more than you know.Whether you’re in it, out of it, or trying to make sense of what the hell just happened, this episode is your validation, your compass, and your reminder: you’re not crazy, you’re not alone, and you can get free.Inside This Episode:Why narcissistic abuse is so hard to recognize (even for smart, strong people)How the trauma bond keeps survivors hookedThe role of storytelling in healing and reclaiming your identityWhat Brandon has learned from thousands of survivor interviewsHow to support someone in a toxic relationship without pushing them awayThe difference between trauma dumping and trauma processingWhat healing actually looks like (spoiler: it’s not linear)About Brandon:Brandon is the creator and host of Narcissist Apocalypse, a podcast and support community helping survivors of narcissistic, emotional, and domestic abuse share their stories, access resources, and find community. His work has helped thousands of people feel seen, heard, and empowered to heal.Bestie Freebie:Join Brandon’s support group for survivors at community.narcissistapocalypse.com — a safe, private space to connect, learn, and grow with others who get it.We’ve got your back, BestieListen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What if the success you’ve been chasing isn’t what you actually want anymore?In this bold and enlightening episode of Bitch Is a Bad Word, Lindsay sits down with career strategist and reinvention expert Daisy Swan to talk about what happens when the ladder you’ve been climbing suddenly feels like it’s up against the wrong wall.From Wall Street burnout to Malibu surfing, Daisy has helped thousands of women navigate the messy, beautiful space between who they were and who they’re becoming. Together, Lindsay and Daisy break down the “midlife wakeup,” how to reclaim your voice after decades of overachieving, and why giving yourself permission to want something else is the first step to getting it.This episode is your permission slip to pivot, your reminder that you’re not too late — and a masterclass in trusting yourself to build a life you actually love.Inside This Episode:What a “midlife wakeup” really feels like (and why it’s not a crisis)How ambition can evolve — and why that’s not failureThe quiet grief of outgrowing a version of yourselfWhy women often wait too long to prioritize their own desiresThe power of curiosity, creativity, and reinventionHow to get unstuck and move toward what you actually want nextWhy it’s okay to outgrow your dream — and how to dream againAbout Daisy:Daisy Swan is a career strategist, reinvention coach, and longtime meditation teacher helping people find clarity, direction, and fulfillment in work and life. Known as “The Los Angeles Career Counselor,” she specializes in helping high-achieving women navigate transitions, break through burnout, and build careers aligned with who they are now.Bestie Freebie:Explore more of Daisy’s work, coaching, and reinvention resources at daisyswan.comWe’ve got your back, Bestie. And your second (or third) act.Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What happens when a survivor breaks free from strangulation, abuse, and a broken system — and finds her voice to fight back?In this honest and gripping episode of Bitch Is a Bad Word, Lindsay sits down with Staci, a survivor of domestic violence and strangulation by a repeat offender still walking free. Staci shares her courageous journey through trauma, the failures of the justice system, and how speaking out can save lives and ignite change.They dive into the dangerous cycle of abuse, trauma bonding, and the urgent need to believe survivors the first time. This conversation is essential for anyone impacted by abuse or seeking to support those fighting to reclaim their power.Inside This Episode:The hidden dangers and devastating effects of strangulation in domestic abuseHow repeat offenders manipulate court systems to continue their abuseUnderstanding trauma bonding and why survivors sometimes doubt themselvesThe crucial role of breaking silence in survivor healing and community safetyPeer support as a powerful tool beyond therapyThe story behind Open Voices, a peer support app born from lived experienceSteps survivors can take to protect themselves and rebuild their livesAbout Stacy:Staci is a brave domestic violence survivor and advocate who co-founded Open Voices, a peer support app designed to help survivors and others find connection and healing through shared experience.Bestie Freebie:Discover Open Voices on the App Store — a safe space for peer support and real conversations about domestic violence, mental health, and more. Visit https://openvoices.co and follow Stacy on Instagram @the.stacii.w for inspiration and updates.We’ve got your back, Bestie. Your voice matters.Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

So you're still toeing the line, trying to "be reasonable" for court, still hoping you can co-parent with someone who thrives on chaos. This week on Bitch Is a Bad Word, Jackie Miller - divorce strategist, high-conflict coach, and professional BS caller - joins Lindsay to break down the narcissist's post-separation playbook.We’re talking:Why co-parenting with a narcissist is a setupThe power of DNE: Do Not EngageHow to stop taking the bait-and recognize when you’re being master baitedWhat a trauma bond actually is (yes, it's chemical)The narcissist's favorite trick: overexplaining, guilt, and controlAnd how to re-engineer your dynamic so you stop playing a game you can’t winJackie brings her signature truth bombs, strategy, and one-liners that will make you laugh while calling you in.If you're in the fight of your life and trying to keep your sanity, this episode is your blueprint.Listen now on Apple, Spotify, or wherever you get your podcasts.And listen to Jackie's podcast OUT OF CRAZYTOWN: DIVORCING A NARCISSISTBecause they know your buttons. But this week, you’re unplugging the whole damn panel.We've got your back , Besties!Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What happens when a mother drops her daughter off at school—and never sees her again? In this gut-wrenching episode of Bitch Sesh, Lindsay sits down with “M,” a doctor, mother, and fierce advocate who dropped her daughter off at school one morning and never saw her come home. It’s been 262 days. No warning, no goodbye. Just a so-called “temporary” custody order that became a silent sentence. From lost milestones to supervised calls, M shares her story of post-separation abuse, litigation trauma, and relentless love. This is a call for family court reform and a voice for silenced mothersWe unpack the truth behind family court trauma, post-separation abuse, and the terrifying reality so many protective mothers face. M's story is a powerful call to action and a heartbreaking reminder that this system is failing the very people it claims to protect.Inside This Episode:What happens when a six-year-old is taken without notice or legal groundsWhy “temporary” custody orders often last for yearsParenting through supervised calls—and losing milestones to silenceHow the courts weaponize protective mothers and reward abusersThe quiet epidemic of litigation abuse and coercive controlThe grassroots movement demanding family court reformAbout M:M is a physician, a mother, and a survivor. She’s part of the National Safe Parents Coalition and an advocate for reforming the family court system. Her story is both a warning and a rallying cry for every mother told to stay quiet, and every child caught in the middle.If you or someone you know needs immediate help, please reach out to the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233We see you. We believe you. We've got your back, Bestie.-----Support our SPONSORSReality isn’t always what it seems…. it’s what you make it. PREORDER "THE LIGHTRUNNER" , Ally Walker’s (SONS OF ANARCHY) debut thriller!!! Comes out on Amazon and Barnes and Noble June 6th but is Available for preorder NOW! Go to www.allywalkerofficial.com for more info.Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What happens when the narcissist loses control of you and starts targeting your kids instead?In this raw and revealing episode of Bitch Is a Bad Word, Lindsay sits down with high-conflict divorce strategist Victoria McCooey, who shares what every woman needs to know before leaving a narcissistic or abusive partner and what’s waiting on the other side when you do it with strategy and power.Victoria explains how narcissists often shift their abuse to the children once they can no longer manipulate their partner, and how you can become the safe, steady place your child needs when the gaslighting turns on them. Whether you’re preparing to leave, knee-deep in a court battle, or struggling to co-parent with someone hellbent on control, this episode is your map, your mirror, and your megaphone.Inside This Episode:What actually happens when you finally decide to leaveHow to outsmart a narcissist without sinking to their levelWhy abuse often escalates when you’re pregnant or financially vulnerableThe heartbreaking moment a narcissist starts targeting the kidsHow to protect your child emotionally when the manipulation flips on themThe top 5 tactics narcissists use during divorce and how to prepare for themWhy leaving a narcissist is like launching a business and how to lead it like a CEOA free resource from Victoria: Five Things Every Woman Should Know Before Divorcing a NarcissistAbout Victoria:Victoria McCooey is a high-conflict divorce coach, narcissist abuse expert, and founder of Divorce Allies, a powerful support platform helping women navigate toxic relationships and emerge with clarity, confidence, and community. She offers one-on-one coaching, an expert-led membership program, and dozens of resources to help you leave smart and stay strong.Bestie Freebie:Download Victoria’s essential guide: Five Things Every Woman Should Know Before Divorcing a Narcissist, plus access support calls, expert workshops, and more at https://www.victoriamccooey.com/ and https://www.thedivorceallies.com/We’ve got your back, Bestie. And your exit plan.Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What happens when the man who once felt like home becomes the reason you fear for your safety?In this gripping episode of Bitch Sesh, Lindsay sits down with Nelsy, a veteran, mother, and survivor of a long-term abusive relationship that began with a single slap and spiraled into years of coercive control. It started in the barracks, with charm, attention, and tenderness… and it ended with holes in the walls, shattered belongings, and a system that protected him over her.We talk about what it means to report abuse in the military, how trauma bonds are formed, and the emotional whiplash of being gaslit by someone who swears they love you. Nelsy’s story is raw, devastating, and all too common and her voice is a rallying cry for women who’ve been told to stay silent.Inside This Episode:What really happens when you report a Marine for abuseHow the military enables abusers behind closed doorsWhy women stay-even after the first slapThe terrifying escalation during pregnancy and motherhoodWhat gaslighting and coercive control actually sound likeThe path to reclaiming your voice, your body, and your lifeAbout Nelsy:Nelsy is a veteran, advocate, and survivor who now speaks openly about domestic violence and military silence. Her courage in telling the truth is a gift and a warning to every woman who’s ever second-guessed her gut.If you or someone you know needs immediate help, please reach out to the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233You’re not alone. Your healing matters. We’ve got your back, Besties!-----Support our SPONSORSReality isn’t always what it seems…. it’s what you make it. PREORDER "THE LIGHTRUNNER" , Ally Walker’s (SONS OF ANARCHY) debut thriller!!! Comes out on Amazon and Barnes and Noble June 6th but is Available for preorder NOW! Go to www.allywalkerofficial.com for more info.Listen wherever you get your podcastsWatch: YouTubeJoin: PatreonFollow: Instagram TikTokSubscribe: Newsletter Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.