Why Do I Feel This Way?

Kate DeAraugo was crowned Australian Idol champion in 2005... but not all fairytales have happy endings and Kate’s life quickly spiralled out of control. In 2017, Kate was convicted of drug possession, drug driving and weapons possession. Six years later, Kate is sober, happily married and with a new baby – so she's decided to turn her difficult experiences into a podcast where she can talk about her life in the hope of giving hope and offering a safe space for other to acknowledge their own hardships.

Paul Field

Paul Field is Australian music royalty - known as one of the founding members of the Cockroaches and The Field Brothers, not to mention the Managing Director of the Wiggles for over 20 years. Over 35 years ago, when Paul was making it big in the Aussie music scene, he was faced with the unimaginable pain of losing his baby girl, Bernadette. In this episode Paul talks through navigating grief, finding strength in his marriage and keeping Bernadette's memory alive. Red Nose Day: Find out more about the cause and how you can get involved here - https://www.rednoseday.org.au Trigger Warning: In this episode we discuss Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling with grief please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

09-30
01:08:09

Jaz Flowers

In today's episode we're joined by TikTok sensation Jaz Flowers (364k+ followers & over 12.6 million likes).  From the outside it looks like Jaz has everything - the media career, the supportive husband and thousands of online fans who were glued to her every move. But when Jaz went through childbirth, everything changed. Jaz speaks candidly about her experience being pregnant, her traumatic child birth and how she's managed to navigate adversity in front of millions of people. Trigger Warning: In this episode we discuss mental health challenges. If you or anyone you know is struggling please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14. Your Recovery House: www.addictionrehab.com.au or call 0461 277 785 Jaz Flowers TikTok: @JazFlowers13

09-23
51:27

Diane Young (Psychotherapist)

Today we’re joined by psychotherapist Diane Young. Specialising in trauma and addiction, Diane has seen and worked through it all. In this episode we chat about the many roads to recovery, how to find the right therapy for you and when you know its time to ask for help. Trigger warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and sexual abuse. If you, or anyone you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

12-16
01:00:48

Heartled Warriors with Dane Muller

Today we're joined by the Founder & Director of Heartled Warriors - Dane Muller. Having battled his own fight with mental health, Dane now leads men, women, couples and youths through retreats with the focus on 'returning home to yourself'. Dane's story is powerful and one that we couldn't wait to share with you. Instagram: @heartled_warriors Website: https://www.heartledwarriors.com.au/ Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of suicide and self-harm. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14

12-09
52:41

Spiritual Warfare with Nikki Dellar

From New Age rituals to psych wards to 'demonic attacks' to church on Sundays... fair to say Nikki has lived 1,000 lives in her short 33 years on Earth. In today's chat Nikki unpacks the path that led to her hospitalisation and how she radically turned her life around at the age of 30. Trigger warning: This episode contains themes of suicide and self-harm. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

12-02
01:06:51

Jonathon 'JMo' Moran

Jonathon Moran has been synonymous with Aussie media for over 25 years. If you've ever read the paper, listened to radio or been to really any event in Sydney - you would have heard about JMo. In this episode, JMo gives us a peak behind the glitz and glamour of being an entertainment reporter, and just how deceiving 'keeping up appearances' can be. WIRES: 1300 094 737 or www.wires.org.au Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and suicide. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

11-18
51:07

The Governor

Today we're joined by former Operations Manager of Corrections Victoria, Roz aka The Governor. Having worked with both men's and women's prisons for 27 years, Roz has seen and heard it all. In this episode we talk about justice verse rehabilitation, the human side of being part of 'the force' and what it meant to be the first female Governor.

11-11
01:19:46

Sex Addiction

Today we're joined by Kate's friend Travis. From a wealthy family, raised in an affluent area, Travis seemingly 'had it all' growing up. For 28 years, Travis lived a heteronormative life and found himself unable to remain monogamous for any long period of time. Cut to a rehab in Thailand - Travis realised what he'd been running from and was diagnosed with 'sex addiction'. In this episode, Travis unpacks what it means to be a sex addict, including the societal stigma and what it looks like to enter recovery. Trigger warning: This episode contains themes of addiction, eating disorders and abuse. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14. Please note: This episode also contains the mention of 'plant medicine' - please consult a professional to establish if this is the right therapy for you.

10-21
54:19

October Catch Up

We have some updates. One of us is heading into her third trimester, the other finally got her mental health plan. Join us as we unpack what's been going on in our worlds this month. Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and eating disorders. If you or anyone that you know is struggling, call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

10-14
31:41

Steph Easton

Today we're joined by founder of Your Recovery House, Steph Easton. Having her own experience with disordered eating and addiction, Steph created the holistic rehab to treat the 'root cause of behavioural issues' and help people who have walked a similar path. In this episode, Steph gives a very raw and honest insight into how addiction ruled her life for many years and most importantly - how she found a way out. You Recovery House: https://www.addictionrehab.com.au Instagram: @yourrecoveryhouse Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction, eating disorders, sexual assault and domestic violence. If you or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

10-07
48:23

Osher Gunsberg

Known for hosting Australian Idol, The Bachelor, The Bachelorette, Bachelor In Paradise and The Masked Singer, Osher has well and truly established himself as Aussie TV royalty. Originally known as 'Andrew G', he changed his name to Osher - Hebrew for 'happiness' - at the age of 38. Today, we find out the 'why' and how this change has affected his life, relationships and career ever since. Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction. If you or anyone that you know, needs help, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

09-16
01:17:41

Dr Cara Crossan

Today we're joined by Dr Cara Crossan - Clinical Psychotherapist and Specialist in Addiction. With over 13 years experience working with individuals and families affected by addictions, Cara will unpack what it means to be an addict and how to make sure you get the right help. She also happens to be one of the therapist that helped Kate during her recovery. Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and eating disorders. If you, or anyone you know needs help, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

09-09
39:05

Let's Catch Up

It's been almost a year since Season 1 and a lot has changed in both our worlds. So we're kicking Season 2 off with a bit of a catch up! Thanks for joining us, we're really glad you're here. Trigger Warning: This podcast contains themes of addiction and eating disorders. If you or anyone you know needs help, call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

09-02
10:39

Sex Talk with AJ Paps

Today we're joined by sex shop owner, entrepreneur and TikTok sensation AJ Papas. AJ is known for his non-nonsense, tough-love relationship and sex advice and he treats this episode no different. From re-creating old school romance to spicing things up in the bedroom, this conversation has it all. TikTok: @ajpapadatos

11-25
48:49

Nick Bowditch

Today we're joined by Nick Bowditch - author, psychotherapist, motivational speaker, TedX presenter, entrepreneur, podcast host and PhD student (clinical psychology). .... he also happens to be in recovery. Nick unpacks his journey through meeting Kate in rehab back in 2016 to speaking to crowds of thousands while experiencing intense social anxiety and now to running his own clinic. Instagram: @nickbowditch Trigger warning: This episode contains themes of addiction, suicide and eating disorders. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

11-04
01:09:39

The Loved Ones

We've heard Kate's story from Kate herself, but addiction often effects more than just the addict. In this episode, we talk to Alex & Eliza - Kate's younger siblings. We unpack everything from the moment they knew Kate was in trouble, to witnessing their parents heartbreak & how they all began to rebuild once she was sober.

12-04
53:36

The Rebuild

From the depths of addiction to a happy home with a beautiful baby boy, Kate details the steps she took in order to create a life that she loves.

11-27
36:38

Rehab

Kate steps into rehab (again) but this time it sticks. In this episode, Kate describes the moment she knew this rehab experience would be different & how she began to rebuild her life. ALCOHOL & DRUG INFORMATION SERVICE: 1800 250 015 THE NATIONAL SEXUAL ASSAULT, FAMILY & DOMESTIC VIOLENCE COUNSELLING LINE: 1800 737 732  LIFELINE: 13 11 14 

11-20
44:46

After The Show

In this episode Kate reveals the depths of her addiction... and nothing is off limits. We learn what her ‘rock bottom’ was, the effects of being in a toxic relationship & the lengths her family went to try and save her. Mentions: Family Drug Support Australia - 1300 368 186

11-13
39:04

Australian Idol

In this episode we talk about Kate’s experience with Australian Idol, THAT comment made by Kyle Sandilands & what happened once the cameras stopped rolling.

11-06
44:47

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