Content note: adult language; sex; cheating; STIs; faith.

What if the thing you’re sure will ruin you is exactly what frees you? This is a raw, unfiltered origin story: the night Rebecca Antonucci chose herself, cheated, contracted herpes, and drew a line in the sand between the life before and the life after. It’s an episode about choice points, spiritual framing without punishment, sexual truth-telling, and the cost of staying where you’re not chosen.We Cover:

• God isn’t punitive; choice is sacred. Your life shifts when you accept you’re never powerless, even at your lowest.
  

• Sexual mismatch is a relationship truth, not a character flaw. Ignoring it invites jealousy, acting out, and resentment.
  

• Choice points are everywhere. Barricades, bollards, “wrong turns,” and gut pings aren’t traps,  they’re mirrors.
  

• Shame alchemizes into leadership when owned publicly. When you tell the story, it stops using you.
  

• Apology ≠ change. “Sorry” without a sustained behavior shift is emotional gaslighting.
  

• Disclosure is adult intimacy. Herpes status and sexual stamina/values are baseline conversations, not awkward footnotes.
  

• Self-drop = collateral damage. Every time you abandon yourself, you end up betraying others too.
  

Time Stamps:

• 00:00 – Prayer, not perfection: Why a 30-second prayer beats a performative morning routine.
  

• 01:37 – Before vs. After: The pivot point that split Rebecca’s life in two.
  

• 02:12 – Training & telling the story: Why this is the first time you’re hearing all of it.
  

• 03:24 – The confession: Cheating, herpes, and unmet sexual needs.
  

• 12:36 – The grief & the rage: Being ignored hurts more than bad sex.
  

• 21:16 – The travel expo test: Following a man who won’t choose you.
  

• 33:50 – Why the lesson stuck: Expander energy and owning the price of the ride.
  

• 35:10 – Integrity vs. pattern: When you know it’s over but keep saying yes.
  

• 37:53 – Why herpes became grace: The line in the sand that prevented the relapse.
  

• 45:00 – Boundaries with temptation: When your libido tells the truth you won’t.
  

• 49:57 – The new disclosure standard: Status and stamina.
  

• 51:08 – Compassion for the younger self: She did the best she could.
  

• 56:48 – Nature loves courage: The quote that carried the reveal.

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