I went live on my social media platform while having a meltdown to show exactly what I was feeling in the moment. The responses were a mix of more hate, judging, ridicule, and other detrimental reactions to a person living with mental illness. There was also some love received, yet sadly, the bad outweighs the good, since the only way for me to recover was to block out every reaction, whether loving or not, because the hardest part of being in the position I am in is being misunderstood by everyone, including those who knew you before you had a name.