By the end of the year we usually take stock of the past, and meet maybe (with some disappointment and frustration!) the gap between our previous new year’s intentions, goals, and maybe our own personal expectations. The energy of innocence, hope, youth, dreams, vigour is something that will always co-exist and lie in contrast with the energy of salt, mud, wisened protection, aged bitterness, the rubber meeting the road. 

Maybe what’s stopping us from a real fresh start, or fresh feeling with life, is the closet of old dreams, deflated, when the wind, “was knocked right out of us” and just the nuanced history of hard things happening to us and around us, and our conscious self doing it’s best to “catch up” with ourselves and where we’re really at, alongside the truths in the dreams of where we want to be. 

This podcast ep covers an exercise that reviews not only gratitude of the past year, but the underlying more secret disappointments we have had, and considering if there are underlying patterns and themes of desire, wisdom, worldly truths that hold a larger realization, truth and meeting of where you really are right at this moment. This transcendent ‘knowing’ is tempered by the acceptance of the heart, but also acknowledging the true callings/desire of the will (A mind-heart-will resonance so to speak). 

Episode actually has ASMR-like quiet times for when we journal/write alongside each other. Hope this serves you well .

For reference for folks following along

Step 1 

Write 10 disappointments/failures/things from the past year/the past in general

• What did you want from it really?
• What actually happened? What truth was revealed from your exploration?

Step 2

Notice patterns from your list, are they usually around a certain theme? Is there an underlying real need from defeated dreams? Is there a pattern of lesson from the realizations? Which numbers feel like they’re more “loaded”/more baggage?

• Don’t math it, listen to the ache/notice rather than solve

Step 3

Walk it out: what is the core truth of where you are at? the base of the tree? Shadow and light, rubber and road: digesting a transcendent and integrated truth: will (desires, dualities) heart (acceptance) and mind/soul (+transcendence). How do you feel? How to support this?

—-

If you appreciate this kind of work send tips here: paypal ,

You can support monthly here: patreon (this also has a library of game writing)

linktr.ee/mariamison_

mariamison.io

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.