I woke up this morning recalling the tragic events that took my place on my university’s campus this time last year. It was placed on my heart to shed light on my own mental health that was a result of this event. I felt like there was a deep need for transparency because many students struggle with survivor's guilt. I am only one of many students who are still learning to deal with something that will never be forgotten. It is a journey that is not linear but in order for us all to heal we have to open up about the things that impact us on a mental level. I want to warn that this may be a triggering podcast for some so I advise to listen at your own discretion. This was not easy for me to speak about but I want people to know they are not alone and want people to understand the other side of when the news cameras stop rolling. We are humans, we are meant to feel, and we are meant to express what we feel.