I admit it. I have a party girl syndrome every couple weeks. I finally understand that I have been seeking connection through substances. I have been trying to escape and avoid reality. I now understand that it's temporary liquid courage, temporary connection - it isn't real. What's real is a deeper connection to self, facing the insecurities in the face and finding all I need inside myself. Next time I want to escape my reality through partying or any mind alterning substances. I shall ask myself the following. Thank you @shanethesoundhealer for putting those together. Is there anything I’m doing that’s getting in my own way? Is there anything I should be doing that’s delaying my process? Is there any resentment, guilt, shame, or suffering that I’m holding onto? How can I be more of myself? And what do I truly love and want to do? What am I calling into my life for peace, prosperity, and abundance? What expectations am I setting for myself or others that is unachievable? When was the last time I did something completely for myself and for no one else? When was the last time I forgave myself? Of my challenges, and shortcomings, what truly belongs to me? Am I taking responsibility or blame shaming? When was the last time I had a real hug? When was the last time I gave a real hug? Do I have challenges in receiving? Do I have deeper challenges in “allowing”? Where in my life am I being authentic? Within integrity? Not authentic or not integral? What’s my relationship with risk? Vulnerability? Who am I trying to save lest myself? Is there anything I am projecting? Where in my life am I being to hard, critical, or judgmental on myself? When was the last time I showed myself compassion? Where in my being can I soften any place that feels heavy?