This Week on Dopey! We are joined by South African Drug Addict and hard core Instagram/TikTok phenom - Toni Becker! Toni is not just any influencer - she brings the Dopey! Toni gets super deep and honest with us - all about the beginning of her addiction and how it all happened with her discovery of Chat Roulette - An Online Chat site that had no limits! Then her forray into CAT ans meth and how it all ended up living in a parking lot in the South African Wilderness!
 
PLUS RIP PHIL LESH! Emails, voicemails and more! On this brand new international edition of that good old  DOPEY show!
 
notes

- social media addiction

- steroid psychosis

- ocd, body dysmorphia

- ephedrine

- trying to run over her friends while drunk

- cousins death

- meth and chatroulette

- bath salts (methcathinone)

- childhood abuse

- stealing money from her mom

- swinging

- boyfriend doses her with lsd

- south african trap houses

- ED treatment

- fathers illness
 
 
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summaryThis episode of Dopey dives deep into the struggles of addiction, recovery, and the personal stories that shape our understanding of these issues. The conversation explores the importance of support systems, the impact of music and loss, and the role of social media in addiction. It also touches on the emerging concerns around substances like kratom and the journey through alcoholism, culminating in the transition to harder drugs. In this conversation, David Manheim shares his harrowing journey through addiction, exploring the transformation he underwent due to alcohol, the vibrant yet dangerous clubbing culture, and the toxic relationships that fueled his substance abuse. He recounts his experiences in rehab, the impact of trauma on his life, and the chaotic descent into crystal meth addiction. David reflects on the romanticization of toxic relationships and the profound effects of childhood trauma, ultimately leading to a cycle of addiction and isolation. His story is a raw and honest portrayal of the struggles faced in the battle against addiction and the quest for identity and belonging. In this conversation, David Manheim and Tony Becker delve into the complexities of addiction, recovery, and personal growth. Tony shares her journey through relationships, substance abuse, and the impact of loss on her recovery process. The discussion highlights the importance of community support, self-awareness, and the challenges of navigating eating disorders in recovery. Ultimately, Tony's story is one of resilience, transformation, and the power of connection in overcoming addiction.
takeaways

• Addiction is a complex issue that requires compassion and connection.


• Support systems play a crucial role in recovery.


• Personal stories can help others feel less alone in their struggles.


• Music can be a powerful tool for reflection and healing.


• Community engagement is vital for those in recovery.


• Kratom is a controversial substance with both benefits and risks.


• Social media can become an addiction in itself.


• The journey through addiction often starts with seemingly harmless substances.


• Alcoholism can lead to severe consequences and treatment is often necessary.


• The transition to harder drugs can happen quickly after initial substance use. David's transformation through alcohol led to dangerous behaviors.


• Clubbing culture became a significant part of David's identity.


• Rehab was initially seen as a way to appease others, not for self-help.


• Tragedy struck with the loss of a loved one, escalating his addiction.


• David's relationship with meth became intertwined with his identity.


• Romanticizing toxic relationships led to further chaos in David's life.


• Childhood trauma had a lasting impact on David's mental health.


• The cycle of addiction often leads to isolation and despair.


• Trusting the wrong people can lead to devastating consequences.


• David's story highlights the complexities of addiction and recovery. Tony internalized a relationship that was more significant to her than to her partner.


• The influence of a new relationship helped Tony let go of her past.


• Tony's online activities provided affirmation but lacked monetization.


• The turning point in recovery came from a counselor's tough love.


• Tony's father's illness gave her perspective on her own struggles.


• Recovery is a gradual process, not a linear path.


• Community support was crucial for Tony's recovery journey.


• Tony's eating disorder emerged as a hidden struggle during recovery.


• The impact of loss can catalyze significant change in one's life.


• Tony's story emphasizes that recovery is just the beginning of a new life.

titles

• The Struggles of Addiction and Recovery


• Support Systems in Recovery


• Reflections on Halloween and Personal Stories


• The Impact of Music and Loss


• Voicemails and Community Engagement


• Exploring Kratom and New Substances


• Social Media and Addiction


• Personal Stories of Drug Use


• The Journey Through Alcoholism


• The Transition to Harder Drugs


• From Partying to Pain: A Journey Through Addiction


• The Dark Side of Clubbing: Identity and Addiction

Sound Bites

• "I wanna be where everybody does cocaine"


• "Rest in peace Phil Lesh"


• "I love Dopey stories from Grateful Dead"


• "Kratom has helped a lot of people"


• "I started to obsess over social media"


• "I blacked out the first time I drank"


• "I went to a party and got trashed"


• "I met a guy and I was very drunk"


• "I became a different person."


• "I got naked and I run into the sun."


• "I was kicked out of my house, rightfully so."


• "I tried to run them over."


• "I fell in love with meth."


• "I wanted chaos."


• "I found toxicity romantic."


• "The dark side of trust and betrayal."


• "I was terrified all the way home."


• "I dodged a bullet."


• "I was doing really well as an actress."


• "I was in psychosis a lot, like severe psychosis."


• "I thought I could manipulate the counselors."


• "I was so tired. I was just so tired."


• "I can choose recovery at this point, he can't."


• "I realized I hadn't done it for months."


• "My story started when I found recovery."

Chapters
00:00 The Struggles of Addiction and Recovery
02:06 Support Systems in Recovery
04:57 Reflections on Halloween and Personal Stories
10:04 The Impact of Music and Loss
15:08 Voicemails and Community Engagement
19:59 Exploring Kratom and New Substances
25:05 Social Media and Addiction
29:53 Personal Stories of Drug Use
35:10 The Journey Through Alcoholism
39:57 The Transition to Harder Drugs
42:21 The Transformation Through Alcohol
46:56 Clubbing Culture and Identity
51:08 Entering Rehab: A False Sense of Control
53:01 Tragedy and Escalation of Addiction
57:42 The Descent into Chaos: Crystal Meth and Relationships
01:01:29 Romanticizing Toxic Relationships
01:06:06 Defining Trauma and Its Impact
01:09:12 The Cycle of Addiction and Isolation
01:15:52 The Dark Side of Trust and Betrayal
01:24:40 Reflections on Relationships and Addiction
01:30:19 The Descent into Addiction
01:36:34 The Turning Point in Recovery
01:43:41 The Impact of Loss on Recovery
01:50:19 Navigating Eating Disorders in Recovery
01:56:29 Finding Hope and Community in Recovery