Ep. 95 - The Two Times I Almost Walked Away From My Faith // Behind the Screen (Part 4/6)
Description
Ever lie awake at 2 AM wondering if God's even there? Or have questions you're too scared to say out loud—even to yourself?
I've been there. Twice.
In this episode, I'm sharing the two seasons I almost walked away from my faith completely. One was intellectual—I couldn't make the pieces fit anymore. The other was heartbreak so crushing I thought God was being cruel.
I'll tell you what those years actually looked like, what kept me from walking away, and why wrestling with God doesn't mean your faith is broken.
Sometimes it means it's finally getting honest.
If you're in the dark right now—or you have been—this one's for you. Stay with me.
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OTHER EPISODES FOR YOU 👀
Episode 92: Behind the Screen: Part 1/6 – A Real Homeschool Day at My House (nobody’s winning awards)
Episode 93: Church Hurts: The Cost of Staying Too Long in a Toxic Community // Behind the Screen (Part 2/6)
Episode 94: Did I Misread the Bible on Parenting? My Journey Back Through Scripture // Behind the Screen (Part 3/6)
🎧 SHOW RECAP
✅ The intellectual crisis that shook Christy’s faith as a college student
✅ How visiting Turkey raised questions she couldn't ignore
✅ Why doubt doesn’t mean your faith is dying; it might mean it's growing
✅ The heartbreak of infertility and the silence that almost broke her
✅ How envy, grief, and unmet longings reshaped her understanding of God
✅ Why choosing to trust became the turning point, not the outcome
If you’re in a season where God feels distant, silent, or confusing… this episode will help you feel less alone and remind you that your questions are not too big for Him.
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💬 Are you in a season of doubt or wrestling? What part of this episode spoke to you most? We’d love to hear your story.
The Christy-Faith Show | Ep. 95
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