1/23/20

Yup, I am late, but the last few weeks have been awesome. In retrospect it makes this episode that much sweeter. Back in August when this stuffed happened, I was in my worst state post breakup. I was depressed, drinking heavily and really not doing much else. It’s no surprise that I attempted to latch onto anything back then, I was hanging by a thread. The way things are going now, I’m so fucking happy I didn’t rush into anything.

We all have those times when we are feeling low, and starved for attention. We put ourselves in bad spots and push the boundaries of what we are truly comfortable with, in exchange for the attention of a perfect stranger for a passing moment. Sadly there are people that prey on people in just this type of situation. They are the worst kind of people, so insecure and caught up in their own shit that they use humans as playthings for their own entertainment. I am convinced that was the driving force behind Pocahontas’ dealings with me, fun for her but utterly depressing on my behalf.