From Beauty Sleep to Broken Hearts: Tracey's Unfiltered Truth About Suicide Loss

Tracey Barraclough isn’t here to sugarcoat anything. She’s here to talk about the hard, messy truth of what happens when someone you love dies by suicide—and you’re left holding the grief, the guilt, the secrets, and the "should-haves." In this gut-wrenching conversation with Elaine, Tracey shares the final days of her brother Nikki, the tangled family dynamics that haunted him, and the heartbreaking moment she realized she might have missed the signs. This episode is an unflinching tribute to Nikki’s memory—and a call to action to truly hear the ones we love before it’s too late.

💥 What We Talk About:

• Losing her brother Nikki to suicide at age 24
• How family secrets can erode mental health
• The myth of “he seemed fine” and masking pain
• Letting go of suicide notes and what they really hold
• Why we must say the word “suicide” out loud
• Learning to listen—and to hear
• How Nikki’s daughter became a gift
• What Tracey would say to anyone standing in similar shoes

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00:00 Introduction and Mission Statement

00:42 Trigger Warnings and Support Resources

01:23 Guest Introduction: Tracey Barraclough

02:11 Tracey's Story: Coping with Loss

06:24 Nikki's Struggles and Family Dynamics

13:34 The Final Days and Reflections

22:08 Reflecting on Heartbreaking Notes

23:30 The Impact of a Mother's Illness

24:31 Family Dynamics and Denial

25:56 Nikki's Struggles and Final Notes

31:55 The Importance of Listening

36:56 Honoring Nikki's Memory

40:34 Closing Remarks and Call to Action

Bio

Tracey Barraclough Dip.THyp.

Clinical Hypnotherapist

Health & WellBeing Mentor

Inspirational Speaker

Former Lunch Mate/Contributor~Steph’s Packed Lunch Channel 4 

Former Contributor~BBC Radio Leeds

Shortlisted Woman of Courage 2010~Yorkshire Women of Achievement Awards

Shortlisted Yorkshire’s Most Inspirational Person 2016~Yorkshire Choice Awards

🔗 How to Connect with Tracey Barraclough:

LinkedIn: Tracey Barraclough

Website: traceybarraclough.com

X: iamicaniwill

FB: @traceyinspiration

IG: Tracey.barracloughtherapist

You Tube: @TraceyBarracloughInspiration