Gabrielle Union is opening up about the pain she felt when her hubby Dwyane Wade had a baby with another woman.

"It should go without saying that we were not in a good place at the time that child was conceived," Union wrote. "But we were doing much better when he finally told me about the pregnancy. To say I was devastated is to pick a word on a low shelf for convenience."

She continued, "There are people — strangers I will never meet — who have been upset that I have not previously talked about that trauma. I have not had words, and even after untold amounts of therapy I am not sure I have them now."

Gabrielle previously shared her struggles with infertility, experiencing multiple IVF cycles. And also had "eight or nine" miscarriages

In the TIME article, she recalls considering taking the drug Lupron to help her conceive, despite intense side effects that she said could include early menopause and brittle bones. She would’ve went through with it until until Wade told her "You've done enough."

"I didn't receive this as concern at the time," she wrote. "It sounded like an acknowledgment of failure. Because at that point I would have sold my soul to get out of the endless cycle of loss. What was the going rate for souls? What was mine worth, anyway? The experience of Dwyane having a baby so easily — while I was unable to — left my soul not just broken into pieces, but shattered into fine dust scattering in the wind."

She continued, "Clearly, my feelings weren't originating from a healthy place. So much of what made the decision so difficult was that if I didn't submit to a surrogacy, then I was convinced I needed to let Dwyane go. Even if he didn't want to, I had to let him find someone who could give him what he wanted."