One of the most sacred tenants of The Order, a fundamentalist polygamous break of sect of the mainstream mormon/LDS church, is living polygamy. Nephi knew he was gay, but hid it most of his life because living authentically was never an option for him. He was essentially assigned a wife at a young age and had 7 children before he realized he couldn’t pretend anymore. His father, who had 14 wives and over 160 children was pushing him to take another wife, so he came out to him. Nephi was told he was gay for various reasons such as eating too much chicken and he needed to stay faithful lest he go to the depths of Hell. Thankfully, he didn’t listen, got out and isn’t hiding his true self any longer.

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Chapter Markers:

00:00:00 Intro
00:02:13 Nephi's polygamous family dynamic
00:03:59 Oldest of 13 kids in immediate family- parentification at 8-10 yrs old
00:05:40 Women are responsible for the chiIdren and income
00:08:42 ChiId labor in The Order
00:11:22 What Nephi's dad Daniel was like
00:15:03 Pre-destined families
00:20:28 Dance cards for betrothals at 16 yrs old
00:26:30 Allowed genres and dance styles for the dances
00:28:08 Being gay was not an option
00:29:55 TW: suic*de ideation
00:32:28 The struggles of being gay with no support
00:34:07 Daniel chose Nephi's college major
00:38:35 The courting process of The Order- no dating till engaged
00:41:53 Nephi's engagement
00:43:28 Plural wives get to make up their last name
00:45:09 Getting married & being pressured to take another wife
00:52:07 Nephi's mom's medical negligence
00:58:19 How Daniel reacted when Nephi came out to him
01:06:45 Nephi's family's reaction to him coming out and leaving
01:09:22 Conversion therapy?
01:15:21 When Nephi left to start a new life, what was it like?
01:18:35 How Nephi is doing now
01:20:28 Linda, Listen

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