Like loads of other people facing the fallout from cancer, Pen has taken some radical decisions about her career, but as the time to leave the BBC draws closer, she contemplates all the years she's spent there, half her life, with mixed emotions...

"even though I know this story is finished, there’s that curious thing that happens with a great book or adventure.  Part of you wants to hurtle to the end and throw yourself at the empty space beyond, the other part of you wants to drag your feet, take time to savour all the best bits, delight in the pleasures the book has afforded you, put off thatinevitable moment when you turn the page and there’s nothing there, a blank sheet then maybe an acknowledgement or two.

I’ve been experiencing both of these things.  Both of these things laced over with fear, pure, undiluted, gulp down the bile, fear."

Lump is produced by Adventurous Audio and sponsored by The Head Gardener

It was recorded by the legends who are Dave and Johnny at The Music Shed Recording Studios

Special thanks to Incredible Feet for their inspiration and belief in the importance of LUMP and for constantly reminding us that while every cancer journey is unique, we never need to run it alone.

You'll find the written version of this episode here.

Searingly honest, heart-breaking, often sweary and laugh out loud funny, LUMP is one woman’s rollercoaster ride through the mind meltdown which comes with learning you have breast cancer. 

Utterly human and compelling, it’s a unique story which will resonate with anyone and everyone who’s ever had a battle with a life changing event in their lives.

Read more here

Written and narrated by Pennie Latin-Stuart