Not Broken, Just Changed: How Spirit Rewrote My Path to Motherhood

Update: 2025-12-02

Description

In this deeply personal episode of Infinite Life, Infinite Wisdom, Susan Grau shares her journey with infertility, grief, and the painful longing to be a mother. She opens up about her struggles with infertility, including six surgeries, failed in vitro attempts, and the emotional toll it took on her. Susan reflects on the moments of desperation, from pretending to be pregnant in baby stores to enduring the excruciating heartbreak of repeatedly seeing negative pregnancy tests.

Despite all the pain, Susan's story is one of resilience, faith, and ultimately, empowerment. She discusses the emotional rollercoaster of infertility and the support that her husband provided during this difficult journey. Susan also talks about the transformative moment when she adopted her first child, and the overwhelming joy she felt when she held her baby girl for the first time.

However, her story doesn't end there. Susan shares how the desire for a family continued to shape her life and how, after many years of trying, the unexpected blessings of motherhood arrived in the form of another beautiful daughter. She speaks openly about the pain of failed adoptions, the emotional turmoil of wanting children but not being able to have them biologically, and how her grief and yearning ultimately led to a deeper understanding of her soul’s path.

Through all the hardship, Susan’s message is clear: the journey of infertility and grief isn’t just about the loss, it’s about finding empowerment in the process. Susan emphasizes that no one goes through these trials alone, whether it’s infertility, grief, or loss of any kind. Support is key, and understanding the pain of others is part of the healing process.

In This Episode:

[00:00 ] Introduction to Susan's Journey with Infertility & Grief
[02:00 ] The Struggles of Infertility: A Personal Story
[05:00 ] The Pain of Repeated Failure and the Quest for Parenthood
[08:00 ] The Role of Support Systems During Infertility and Loss
[10:00 ] Adoption: The First Step Towards Becoming a Mom
[13:00 ] The Unexpected Blessing: The Birth of a Second Daughter
[16:00 ] The Emotional Toll of Failed Adoptions and Loss
[19:00 ] Empowerment Through Grief: How to Find Strength in Your Struggles
[21:00 ] The Power of Support: Understanding the Importance of Being There for Loved Ones
[23:00 ] Learning to Trust Spirit and the Path Ahead
[26:00 ] Grief and Empowerment: Overcoming Obstacles to Find New Avenues
[28:00 ] Final Thoughts on Infertility, Loss, and Empowerment
[30:00 ] The Importance of Letting Go and Allowing Spirit to Guide You

Notable Quotes

“Grief is in the corner doing pushups, waiting for you to be vulnerable. You have to build your strength to walk through it.” – Susan Grau
“The journey isn’t just about the loss, it’s about finding empowerment through the process and the growth that comes with it.” – Susan Grau
“When I held my daughter for the first time, I knew she was meant to be mine. It was the most healing moment of my life.” – Susan Grau
“No matter what form your family comes in, it’s the love that defines what it means to be a mother or a father.” – Susan Grau
“We have to trust that spirit is guiding us, even when it doesn’t look the way we expected. We have to get out of our own way.” – Susan Grau

Susan Grau

Susan Grau is an internationally celebrated intuitive life coach, a key opinion leader, author, medium and speaker, who discovered her ability to communicate with the spirit world after a near-death experience at age four. Trained by Dr. Raymond Moody, James Van Praagh, and Lisa Williams, Susan is a Reiki Master, hypnotherapist, and grief therapist. Her new book, "Infinite Life, Infinite Lessons," published by Hay House, explores healing from grief and the afterlife. With media coverage in GOOP, Elle, and The Hollywood Reporter, Susan's expertise extends to podcasts, radio shows, and documentaries. She offers private mediumship readings, life path guidance, reiki sessions, and hypnotherapy, aiding individuals in healing and finding spiritual guidance.

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