I used to think that learning new things about yourself was self-discovery and part of a growth mindset. Now I realize that some things just don't matter, and I'm fine with that.

I was working on two projects simultaneously, each of them was attached to a deadline, and they were easily 100+ hours of work. I also managed a team, led a recovery ministry, served on a board, coached both of my kids' sports teams, and was planning a second mission trip to India. I was sitting at my desk doing my best to hold it all together when someone walked in and dumped another task on me. Something happened to me at that moment. I could feel my body temperature spike and my heartbeat through my chest. I got lightheaded and thought I had a heart attack. I got up, excused myself, said I would be right back, walked outside the parking garage straight to my jeep, and drove myself to the ER.

"I'm not going to die today. I'm not going to leave my wife and kids without a husband and father."