Track 46: Trueform Castiel

Update: 2024-08-03

Description

Welcome to episode forty-six of the Mixtape Book Club Podcast.

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In this episode, Mal and Ellen welcome author aishitara to discuss Destiel fics featuring Castiel’s true form. Fics include aishitara’s I Carry Your Heart With Me, So Says The Sword by komodobits, every light he cannot see by intothesilentland, A Constellation of Wishes by Destina
plus many more!

You can find our Mixtape Book Club Ao3 collection here, containing the stories we’ve discussed on the podcast so far.

As always, Mixtape Book Club contains fic spoilers, swearing and discussion of adult topics. Please listen at your own discretion, with attention paid to any little ears that might be nearby!

A transcript is available for this episode.

Our guest: aishitara

Nessa pubishes their Destiel works under aishitara on ao3.

We previously featured Nessa’s fic, Dragon in the Cup, in our Creature Cas episode.

Also mentioned: What is Grief if Not Love Persevering (3,774, T)

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Featured fics (timestamps in brackets)

I Carry Your Heart With Me by aishitara (00:16:40 )
Published for DCBB 2021, 27k words, E
Art by verobatto

“Dreamin’ about anything good?” Dean asks instead of letting those other words out, because if he admits it out loud right now he might spontaneously combust.

“Yes.” Castiel gives him a sidelong glance. The corner of his mouth is tilted in a smug smile. “Something very good.”

“Oh yeah?” Dean’s fingers are tingling. Are his fingers supposed to be tingling?

“Yes,” Cas says again. His smile turns endearingly shy as he adds: “It seems I can’t stop thinking about kissing you, even when I’m asleep.”

every light he cannot see by intothesilentland (01:07:50 )
Published in 2021, 8500 words, Not rated
Art by keylimedean

Here in Purgatory, Castiel cannot keep his true form tethered to his vessel. He’s a beacon of light for monsters to flock toward, he’s a danger to those around him—especially Dean—and with each passing day, he has less and less hope of making it through a gateway back to earth, a gateway designed for humans.

But if he can take Dean safely there, he will—all the while hiding his true form from a human he knows will be disgusted by it.

After all, Castiel has always been willing to bleed for Dean.

And he bleeds,

and he bleeds,

and he bleeds.

A Constellation of Wishes by Destina (01:02:00 )
Published in 2022, 8500 words, E

Dean builds a little house in Heaven, because it’s easier than saying what he feels. And then he invites Cas to come home.

So Says The Sword by komodobits (00:40:40 )
Published for DBCC 2017, 85k words, E
Art by kayanem: https://kayanem.tumblr.com/post/167025583569/art-for-the-wonderful-cuddlebabies-aka

The briefing was simple: ‘Stand guard over the Michael Sword until the battle is ready to commence. Await further instructions.’

Castiel doesn’t mind working security duty; he was briefed shortly after the initial salvation of the Sword from the pit, and again before taking up his position. He knows what to do. However, it’s easy to forget that the green room isn’t real. Time moves differently there, the space ever-changing to make a prison of mountains, cathedrals, salt flats, orchards, and whatever Castiel was led to believe about Heaven’s greatest weapon—Dean Winchester is something entirely unexpected.