While Jessica Dermody was enjoying what felt like "school holidays" during lockdown on her parent's farm, a close relative committed suicide.

Where to get help:

• NZ Police
• Manaaki Tāngata | Victim Support: 0800 842 846
• Rape Crisis: 0800 883 300
• Rape Prevention Education
• Empowerment Trust
• HELP Call 24/7 (Auckland): 09 623 1700, (Wellington): 04 801 6655 - 0
• Safe to talk: a 24/7 confidential helpline for survivors, support people and those with harmful sexual behaviour: 0800 044 334
• Mosaic - Tiaki Tangata Peer support for males who have experienced trauma and sexual abuse: 0800 942 294
• Women's Refuge: 0800 733 843
• It's Not OK: 0800 456 450
• Shine: 0508 744 633
• Victim Support: 0800 650 654
• HELP Call 24/7 (Auckland): 09 623 1700, (Wellington): be 04 801 6655 - 0
• The National Network of Family Violence Services NZ has information on specialist family violence agencies.
• Lifeline: 0800 543 354 or text HELP to 4357
• Suicide Crisis Helpline: 0508 828 865 / 0508 TAUTOKO (24/7). This is a service for people who may be thinking about suicide, or those who are concerned about family or friends.
• Depression Helpline: 0800 111 757 (24/7) or text 4202
• Samaritans: 0800 726 666 (24/7)

If it is an emergency and you feel like you or someone else is at risk, call 111.

Go to this episode on rnz.co.nz for more details