a little while ago, i was looking back through my photos when i happened upon a photo of my friend, on a bus in the west bank, looking at a map. which i LITERALLY did not remember ever happening. don’t misunderstand, i know i went to the west bank, but that entire interaction, her ever having a map of the region, or any part of that moment was entirely nonexistent in my brain. which was unsettling! here i was, taking pictures “to remember,” and i’d lost a whole moment i'd wanted to keep in my brain. 

did i just lose a memory? did i even remember it in the first place?