Sorry My Anxiety Is Talking

Sometimes running away from our problems seems to be the answer right? What if I told you don't forget to stop & smell the roses?In this week's episode life decided to slap me upside the face  & remind me that being grateful & present is IMPORTANT. When we are in a constant state of "what's next" we take everything we have for granted. Taking a moment to reflect on everything that has gotten you to this exact moment can bring you back to reality. So yes stop & smell the roses & realize everything up until this exact moment was meant to be, enjoy it!xoxoTwigzFollow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

Live @ Treefort Music Fest on the mental health of musicians, artists, & creatives!If you weren't able to attend the show you can now listen to the live recording! But be sure to get your ass there next year ;) Joining me is the lead singer of Acid Tongue Guy Keltner, a psychedelic grunge Seattle-based band. Rahkeem a Boise local full-time DJ & Jesse Goodwin from the Boise local bands Cigs Inside & Bittermint.We dive into topics such as imposter syndrome, how to get involved in the music scene, what keeps them motivated & passionate through hard times as a creative & a lot more! This episode is great for anyone in the creative world looking for some inspiration. I'm super proud of this episode<3 I hope y'all enjoy.See you next year!xoxo Twigz Follow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

Your environment is everything. From living in a toxic environment to officially living on my own has been a complete whirlwind.  I go into depth on what the grieving process of leaving something toxic was like for me & what mental clarity & positive changes have happened now that I live alone. This episode is a reminder nothing lasts forever & you're always one decision away from changing your life. If you've ever been in a toxic living situation or live with your parents & feel completely stuck, lost, or down about yourself, this episode is for you. xoxo TwigzFollow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

Finally! It's beginning to feel like the early 2000s again where less makeup & more natural beauty is IN. I share my experience on how stepping away from fake hair, fake lashes, dressing for comfort & less makeup has completely changed my idea of beauty & how I feel about myself in a more positive way.I hope this episode inspires more women, men, gays & theys to embrace our quirks & what we view as our flaws is actually what makes us uniquely beautiful.  xoxo TwigzFollow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

I just wrapped up celebrating Pride 2023 & it was hands down my best Pride yet! I asked myself why & it hit me... I did the entire weekend SOBER!In this episode, I break down how my relationship with alcohol has severely changed within the last year & how I have been slowly weening myself away.  There are a lot of reasons as to why I believe we drink but it got to a point where my anxiety/depression episodes were spiraling out of control due to hangovers & alcohol bringing them forth. I now live a sober life & LOVE IT.  I share the positive effects I have personally experienced since I stopped drinking both physically/mentally. I also share my fun tricks that I do while I'm out to still enjoy myself, feel involved in the party & help with my social anxiety. This episode isn't to shame anyone for drinking or make anyone feel less than.  I am sharing this episode to empower others who may be sober curious & have been wanting to take the plunge. I am a prime example that being sober is possible, fun & incredibly sexy too!xoxoTwigzFollow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

Part 3 is finally here!In the final series w Levi, he shares the story of his decision to finally leave the Mormon church & what the process what like in doing so. We discuss what his life was like after leaving which led to how he ultimately found himself & the search for his own happiness outside of organized religion. He gives advice to people who may currently be in a similar situation & tips in helping to find yourself/falling in love with yourself.I hope for everyone who has kept up with this series has found Levi's story inspiring & impactful, no matter who you are or what walk of life you come from. Please remember you are not alone & you can always start again.I love you Levi- i am so proud of you <3 Follow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

Why is it that every year when our birthday is nearing, we have an existential crisis?I call this, the birthday blues.In this week's episode, I discuss why I think this is. From the fear of aging, feeling like no one really cares or is excited for our birthday, seeing who are true friends are, or taking a look back over the year & feeling like we really haven't accomplished a goddamn thing. Whatever it may be we all experience it & I break it down in this episode as I had my yearly birthday blues on my birthday recently.I hope this episode helps us better understand why birthdays bring up so many feelings for us & a good reminder were not alone in those feelings.Birthdays can suck & but they don't always have to.I hope yall enjoy!xoxo TwigzFollow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

It's one of the number one questions I get asked, "Why'd you leave LA?"I took a trip recently back to LA & had a huge epiphany while I was there, along with a trip down memory lane. In this episode, I share what my experience was like living in LA for almost 3 years & what I feel no one else REALLY talks about aside from the glitz & glamor. This episode is great for anyone who is considering moving to LA or in general. I share what I appreciate the most since leaving LA & what I would look out for/consider if I were to ever move again. Most importantly choosing to live in a place that is good for your mental health above all!Enjoy,xoxo TwigzFollow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

In PT 2- Levi shares very intimate details as to what led him to make the decision to go to conversion therapy & conversion therapy camp. He explains what his experience was like & what some of the exercises he & other camp attendees had to do while in this camp. We then talk about what his life was like after camp & the new journey of redemption he had ahead which included attending BYU & becoming a testimonial for an organization that promoted conversion therapy. His testimonial was seen & heard by over 100,000 + people which led him to suffer mentally from his own internal struggles & who he knew he still was.  Levi comments on what he thinks of conversion therapy now & how it has & continues to affect others tragically. Trigger warnings for this episode again- I hope you guys enjoyxoxo TwigzFollow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

Levi Strasser, who is he? Why did I choose to have him on the podcast? Not only an incredibly dear friend of mine, he just filmed a documentary "Moved By Love" premiering at Sundance Next Year where he talks about his life growing up in the Mormon church, being gay, conversion therapy & so much more.In this PT 1 of 3 series- Levi gives us a better understanding of the Mormon religion/beliefs. What his childhood was like growing up religious & when he first initially knew he was gay. He explains the struggles he went through fighting the idea of him being gay while also being a devoted Mormon. He tells his coming out story & the shunning that went along with it from people close to him. The rebelling he then played into which then led him to run back to the church for his repentance journey which ultimately led to a church mission & conversion therapy. This will be an incredibly heavy series & I want to preface there are trigger warnings for these episodes. I hope you find his story profound as I did.xoxo Twigz Follow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

With Treefort Music Fest being a hectic time for everyone performing I have Dr. Sapiro break down stage fright/performance anxiety for all of us to understand better. How do we all physically/psychologically experience it? What's it deeply rooted from? How do we conquer it?Along with our discussion, we dive into finding self-confidence, self-worth,  trusting yourself & realizing how special you really are in this world. Dr. Mike also goes into depth on his work with Ketamine-assisted therapy, what it is like & what exactly his sessions with Ketamine entail & expose. This episode takes many twists & turns & was a real tear-jerker for my audience, myself & I hope as well for those who listen. This was an incredibly vulnerable experience for me & I wouldn't have had it any other way. I am very proud of this episode!! You can find Dr. Michael Sapiro at www.michaelsapiro.com Instagram: @dr_ mike_boiseFollow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

Funks happen... at the most inconvenient times... & we're not exactly sure sometimes why they even happen. I recently had a funk where I instinctively knew what I needed to do in order to get out of it. In this episode, I break down some tips that have helped me get out of these ruts, but most importantly why I think they happen & ultimately finding a sense of purpose & passion is what brings us out of them. I hope this episode helps the next time you find yourself feeling a little off & remember sometimes funks can be the universe telling us to wake the fuck up!xoxo Twigz Follow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

We all do it, retail therapy. But a what point is it doing us more harm than good? Sometimes I believe we buy things to get a quick dopamine hit in hopes, it'll just maybe cure the depression we feel daily OR we constantly compete with our peers to look cool & trendy, no matter how much money is REALLY in the bank account lol. In this episode, I discuss a recent experience I had shopping at a flea market that led me to all of these emotions & feelings. Who are we buying for?  Are we doing it to seek external happiness? Are we even financially stable enough to be making these purchases? Or are we digging ourselves deeper into a more giant financial hole? I explain tips that have helped me become more financially stable, stop impulsive buying & ways to avoid having buyer's remorse/financial anxiety. Along with realizing there are sometimes bigger dreams you have to prioritize than a $200 bag.Remember, if you don't ABSOLUTELY love it...you probably don't need it. xoxo TwigzFollow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

I hope you guys have enjoyed part 1 of my interview with Jake!In the second part of this interview, Jake gives us tips on how he personally deals with his mental health struggles & advice he has for anyone wanting to get into drag or come out if they may be afraid to do so. We get into the discussion of his hopes for the LGBTQ + scene in Boise & the community overall. As an ally myself, I ask him the question of how we can all be better allies within the community.We also discuss the Q nightclub Colorado Springs shooting & how prominent gun violence is happening in the community with little to no regulation or restrictions. Alongside how high suicide rates are due to a lack of gun control. In conclusion, we discuss NYC & what it's like for Jake to live there & what he's learned most about himself since moving. He gives his advice to anyone who is thinking about leaving their hometown & how we feel it can be so beneficial for the soul searching some of us may need. We unpack a lot in this 2nd part & I hope you guys enjoy it as much as the 1st!I had so much fun having Jake on the podcast & I hope again this episode impacts & inspires someone who may feel similar to his story & journey. "Don't miss out on the excursion of your life"I love you allxoxo TwigzFollow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

The wait is over! I am excited to announce the podcast officially has its first guest! Jake Salutregui aka Miss Denim Cain. Jake is an absolute sensation & voice here in Boise's Queer community & most recently a New York resident. His involvement, passion, & support for the community is something I look up to & admire most about him. It is the exact reason I wanted him on this podcast with the important discussions we'd be having involving the community/drag/mental health & so much more!In this first part episode, Jake & I discuss when he first knew he was gay, he goes into depth about his coming out story & the difficulties surrounding it. He discusses how he got introduced to drag & how his drag persona Denim Cain came to be. He talks about the beginning signs of his struggles with his mental health & why he believes the Queer community struggles immensely with mental health issues.My hope in this episode with Jake's story & vulnerability is it will inspire people who may be scared to come out or get involved with drag. I hope it shows anyone who is Queer they have a community of people who love them & support them through their journey of self-discovery & becoming who they really are meant to be. If you are struggling with your mental health while being Queer, I love you. We love you. I hope you guys enjoy & stay tuned for part 2!xoxo Twigz @thejakecain @thedenimmcainFollow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

Cue The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year by Andy Williams.It's here friends, the holidays are here, and the seasonal depression is in full force. In this episode, we talk about the annual seasonal depression & why I feel it personally happens to me every year. Good thing Christmas came early because I share all the tips that have been helping me this season! Including a major one, GIVING BACK! I go into depth about why giving back & not just for the holidays has helped my depression immensely. Along with other helpful advice to get you through your seasonal depression this year. I have hope for all of us surviving this holiday season as I know it is a tough time for many of us for many reasons. I hope this episode gives some comfort & reassurance. We can get through it.xoxo Twigz Follow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

Let's talk about dating. As we all know dating can be rough, let alone, dating as an anxious & depressed person. I give you guys all my tips & advice on how to navigate dating while suffering from a mental illness, things to pay attention to and look for, & things that are really important when we do decide to date. We talk about how being picky in your dating choices & being upfront about your mental health is crucial. We also talk about attachment styles, love languages, not settling, staying focused on evolving in & out of a relationship & how finding the perfect partner complimentary to you & supportive of your mental health is so important. This episode is also great for anyone wanting to find out more about how to navigate their partner's suffering, get a glimpse of what it's like in our shoes dating & how you can become a better partner to them & the relationship. I hope this episode helps you become more confident in knowing exactly what you want in a person/relationship, reminds you that you can be loved regardless of what your brain may tell you & eases the stress that may come with dating.I love you allxoxo TwigzFollow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

She has officially entered a new era!This week is a little mini-episode for you guys. I wanted to give you some life updates &  where my head is at currently.  I dive into the details of this new era I have stepped into along with learning the art of detachment in my life currently. We discuss how detachment & letting go have helped immensely with my depression/anxiety. I also remind yall to not give up hope, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. If you are currently in a sad season of your life I promise a happy one is right around the corner. I love you all <3 Follow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

This one is heavy yall & emotionally triggering for me. In this week's episode, I discuss the negative stigma I feel that most anxious/depressed people may receive. Along with my own personal experience of people's reactions/treatment towards me once knowing I suffer from mental illness.  A lot goes down in this episode as it brought up some emotions for me. Buckle up, friends! Follow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz

Being an anxious party girl is hard. In this week's episode, I give a recap of how Pride weekend & many other weekends like this, send me into anxious overload. I recently discovered in the last year that any time there is an event/gathering/festival or celebration that is multiple days it brings on my anxiety/depression severely. I expect an episode EVERYTIME & is something I now have to prepare for. How incredibly frustrating ?!I give you guys some tips on what's helping me but it's still so new to me. I'm still learning how to navigate this myself. I hope you guys even have some pointers for me. Let's figure this out together. xoxo TwigzFollow me on Instagram: @twiiggzzzFollow me on TikTok: @twiiigggzzz