Lesson 19
Description
As frequent reference to a Teaching, a Teaching is generally carried on in a School. Sometimes the Schools are put on where groups of people are together and others who are not there think unusual things must go on. At the particular moment we would like to describe what a School is and what goes on in a School. First there is a group of people that have their own ideas of what-out-to-be brought from various areas and put together.
Wherever there are two or more people together in any form of a relationship, whether it’s working together, living in the same house, living in the same apartment, or whether there are two people that have some intimate relationship such as marriage or family etc. we have that portion of a School; two or more people in one place with different sets of conditioning, different sets of ideas of what-ought-to-be in relationship. The other things that goes in a school are the ideas of the School, what makes up Teaching; the Ideas of self-observation and this self-observation of course, is in relationship with other people. What does one do when one thinks one has what one ought to have and somebody else comes along with a different what-ought-to-be at that particular moment and they “bump” a little bit. This determines what one sees. Then if I see that the conditioning is doing this then one is separated. If one identifies with the what-ought-to-be, with the conditioning, there is then conflict between two people. Of course, this is used as a Teaching example.
Anywhere in the world where there are two or more people there are the physical requirements for a School. Where ever the words of the Teaching, the ideas of the Teaching are available, whether one receives them from tape or some person in person, then that is the other aspect of the School. Then is the person doing the self-observing. These three factors make up a School.
When you put three factors together, the initiative, resistance, form, then there is a result. When a person has this there is a result of building a new spiritual body. A body is a frame of reference; it is a body of ideas, a body of observations. It has nothing to do with beliefs etc. but is really something that one has experienced and seen for self. Each and every person that is listening to these discussions is in a School. One, you have certain ideas with which to work with, to observe, are practicing self-observation, you are in relationship with one or more people whether it be at work, at home or whatever, there is a relationship. And one can only be in School in relationship. If one went out to be a hermit and took these ideas there would really be very little to observe because only in relationship with the other person is there resistance to the ideal. No one has to think of being resistance to another, just the very fact of our existence we are resistance to other people, we are second force.
So first we have two or more people together. Second we have the ideas of the School, of the Teaching, self-observation. What does one observe? One observes building accounts, one observes the many I’s jumping around having each one their say. We observe the many efforts at conflict, the efforts to self-improve, the efforts to convince the other, the efforts to blame, the efforts to make everything fit the ideal and be disappointed. We have all the ideas and we can observe them. So life really is the teacher, the everyday existence we find self in is the teacher because there is always relationship. It continually reminds us whether we are using the Teaching or have gone to sleep and identified with the world again. The basic ideas of ideals, self-improvement, signs and wonders, demonstrations and blaming, anti-agape, which come up with all the unpleasant emotions of anger, guilt, fear, insecurity, frustration, aggravations, annoyances etc. One is always in a School wherever one may be. If one recalls this and is aware that everyone there is also a student, maybe consciously or unconsciously, but at least I am a student if I am observing, and everyone who “bumps me,” so to speak, reminds me to use the material. As long as we do this we will have plenty to do.
We will review the kind of Not-I’s that one sees in self, what kinds of personalities are in the self. As we have observed, some of them get to be rather well educated as one is observing them and they get more cunning. They don’t want to be caught. They are like foxes that have been trapped, they get very aware of being observed and they become more cunning. The ones that have never seen men trapping them are quite bold, they go on about their affairs. So we might say we are “fox hunting” or “fox trapping” because foxes are, in all fables and Teaching stories, considered to be very cunning. So here are some Not-I's, some foxes that one may observe:
1. There are Not-I’s that continually tries to entice I to identify with it.
2. Then there is a condemning Not-I’s that will pretend to be I. It says “After all, all these other I’s are doing wrong,” and it makes every effort to ally with I, the observer. I the observer has a lonely job and sometimes it is quite easy when something is trying to be its ally for it to agree with it.
3. Then there is a self-improving Not-I’s that attempts to identify itself as being I the observer. It pretends to observe and says, “Now they will get better,” and it starts one into identifying with it and starts one into self-improving.
4. Then there is the self-righteous Not-I’s that tries to reason with I to see that everything should be made righteous. These are very cunning. They are pretending to be angels of light and want more and more righteousness. Their real intent is to get I to identify with them. Once one agrees with, identifies with one of these Not-I’s then they begin to change their tactics.
5. Then there’s justifying that makes almost anything sound good. They are wonderful attorneys-at-law. They can argue fine points about anything to make it sound like “This really should be justifiable, this is right, this is really X talking, maybe.” They’re experts at changing the meaning of words.
These Not-I’s love to take the Teaching that I is free to experience whatever may arise in the house of the self and not identify with the happening. They try to twist that idea into license to do anything and everything they can justify.
We will observe that there are two basic parties of Not-I’s, both are very cunning, the party of A and the party of B and that they’re in conflict. That each party is attempting to get I to identify with it to overcome the other party which is being held out as being very evil. In other words, it would be all right to overcome evil, wouldn’t it? A holds out that B is evil because it produces guilt, because it puts on a false front and because it believes whatever it is told to believe by an authorities. A is saying that that is evil and that one should join forces with A and overcome it. But B says you should overcome A because A is a complainer and it is the violent one, it sticks up for its rights and it judges and blames other people. Both of these can be made to sound very enticing. As I observes this I it is beginning to build a body, a spiritual body, a spiritual frame of reference. The old frame of reference was somewhat of a monster; it had two heads, A and B and anything with two heads is rather a monster. It has complete disorganization in its self and it has all kinds of blind areas. In some place it’s said it has a beam in its eye and still trying to get the speck out of its brother’s eye. A had a big beam in its eye and trying to get a speck out of B’s eye, and B had a big beam trying to get the speck out of A’s eye. So they contend and moan quite a bit but they get more and more subtle as we go along. So it is well to be aware of these parties.
Keep the picture of man where one can observe it and listen to their various ideas. They try to get one to agree with thoughts. Thoughts are mere associations. As associations come along one sounds pretty reasonable. We read something in the paper or someone says something and we associate something else with it and feel we have made a great stride in understanding but it is still only one of the old associations. It is to be seen and reported, not to be identified with, not to be judged.
As long as one is seeing and reporting one is building a clean and pure spiritual body. The old man that is distorted, has two heads, is blind and possibly is a leper is being destroyed — it’s being eliminated by X. Another way of saying it is the old house is being cleansed, the house of the awareness, so that I with its new body can move in. Its like any baby, it starts with a small body just observing. As it observes it begins by observing Not-I’s to build a spiritual body. It has a spiritual frame of reference. It has discernment. One might say it discerns demons, the Not-I’s, and it discerns Spirit, the Truth and the Value of the Teaching that reminds it what to do. It does not tell it, “It must do this or not do that.” It is a guide, a light, and it begins to be a body full of light. As more and more light is in the less and less the dark creatures of the conditioned world are in.
One might also observe these very cunning Not-I’s. There is a considering Not-I that always says, “How does this affect me, how does this do this, now that wasn’t fair the way they did that.” I is easily enticed in this because I is always doing what seems right, proper and justifiable, and really leaves off the justifying. The Not-I’s use justifying to make every sort of thing seem right and proper. After all that is the whole purpose of justifying is it not, that it