Today's episode is a little different than the ones that came before it. When I experience depression it isn't like days or weeks of feeling terrible and unmotivated... It's like a wave that comes out of nowhere and effects me until I fall asleep. Sometimes those waves become more frequent, and sometimes they are unheard of for a while... but usually I don't know when it will strike.  I pride myself in how self aware I am, but sometimes being so self aware isnt a good thing for my mental health. Sometimes I will be so self aware of something that I beat myself up about it or I overthink and go into a downward spiral of emotions. 

This episode was in the midst of a full on wave of depression mixed with self awareness. You will hear as I break down and tell you my raw and unfiltered feelings and then as I remind myself that better days are ahead. I can move in duality and feel the feelings of saddness and depression, but still logically understand that everything will indeed be okay. I have survived my hardest day, and I know I can survive this. 

Part two will be the lesson I learned from that wave of depression. I have found that there is always a lesson in depression. Something that I had to feel into and realized before I could move forward and choose happy again, so stay tuned for part two in the coming days. 

 

As always, thanks for being a part of The Empowered She Fam! 

XO, K.