I can relate to this scene very clearly. In my early days in the family business with my father, I would catch myself eliminating a positive with a negative. So after working with him at the bar/restaurant I would try and stay out of trouble and go boxing or hit the gym after the gym I would be so wound up and have so much energy now I know it was anxiety from supplements I would take I honestly didn’t know what to do with myself so I would want to go spend time with my father some sort of sporting event would be on and/or I knew where associates of ours would be so in order to hang out with him he would be in his living room he would be at the restaurant and bar so I would come in and he would be relaxing with friends of ours watching a baseball or basketball game, football whatever so I would try and sit down and have something to eat and hang out with them. Watching them drink and relax made my anxiety worse wanting to jump out of my skin seeing them relaxed and calm. Allowing my mind to play tricks on me I would say fuck it limit yourself to a couple. Yea I would have a couple with them and be more anxious than I originally walked in the first place. As they were sitting there relaxing and enjoying the game, my mind was racing pre-planning the next turn of events (well I know I got about an hour or two then these guys wanna go home and call it a night) I can go to this bar up the street till midnight then this other one that will let me stay after hours I can stop at this deli in between load up with more booze and hit the strip club or after hours bar and have booze at the house to get me to the point Of passing out and having enough to start my day in the morning. Call it sick? I do it is a disease.   In this clip, you will see Christopher so socially uncomfortable worried about if people around him were ok and having a good time cause he’s sober, but In fact, nobody cares honestly they are happy. They don’t have to worry about you or babysit you. He speaks about not being around places that are triggers to him but tony couldn’t understand cause he did not battle the disease of addiction. My father was my number one support, but relapse over relapse started with him telling me just stick with beer you don’t get out of control as I did with liquor. Because he is a composed couple beer a night drinker he couldn’t understand how I felt like I did. When I got sober three years ago I couldn’t go sit down at a bar and watch sporting events with him it took years before I was comfortable being around others drinking but it was sacrifices I made to get myself where I needed to get. I missed many social events because I wasn’t drinking but I also remember being an addict and blacking out at social gatherings I missed because I was present at the event but physically and mentally wasn’t there back then and couldn’t remember a minute of it. So what is the difference if I missed it or not it’s better I missed it temporarily and sacrificed that time rather than remove myself from family and friends permanently cause I was on the road to an early grave?