I've been a member of the Honourable Company of Cancer Patients for over five years now and, amazingly, I'm still alive, and against the odds. I have a blood cancer, Multiple Myeloma, and I didn't expect to live this long.

I waded through the tough grind of chemotherapy and dealing with physical disablement. I went down, nearly fell through the cracks, and found myself emerging from a dark tunnel around three years ago.

I found myself starting a new life - well, kind of. I have no idea how long I am to live - it could be next month or five years. But I found a reason to be alive.

This is for cancer patients and people with serious or terminal illnesses. It's not about the medical stuff: it's about the experience of cancer and what it can do to us. Deep in our soul.

This is my fiftieth podcast from the far beyond. The rest are on Spotify or on my site at www.palden.co.uk/podcasts.html - I'm leaving some (I hope) interesting thoughts before I go back to the stars.

Love, Palden