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This episode tells the intense story of a man after graduating college who feels unwell but starts working anyway. He chases a job in New York and gets caught up in wanting to make money. But his nerves get worse, leading to a breakdown.

He feels new and scary sensations and can barely speak, though he hides it. Convinced something terrible is coming, he destroys old writings and goes home. He feels awful and believes he's going to have seizures, which terrifies him.

Then, he becomes completely sure he is having seizures. Desperate to die before anyone sees him in one, he plans to kill himself. He thinks about drowning himself in a lake and looks for poison.

Finally, he decides to jump from his fourth-floor window. He looks out, hesitates, but then jumps. He hits the ground hard, gets injured, but doesn't pass out.

The shocking thing? The terrible fear that had haunted him for six years vanishes the instant he lands. He never feels that way again. The episode explores his descent into this dark place and the bizarre way his suffering suddenly ended.

Trigger Warning: This episode describes suicidal thoughts and an attempted suicide, which some may find upsetting. Please be aware.

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