I get it, I know first hand how emotionally draining this time of year can be for anyone who has struggled with loss. For many years of my life, I spent time escaping this time of year, not wanting to feel any of the uncomfortable feelings. I spent time crying alone, feeling unworthy, giving myself a pity party for things I have no control over. I was tired of feeling that way so, I decided that it was up to me to create the experience I want to remember when it comes to these specific days of the year. It has been a journey, finding how I want it to look for myself, of course it might change over the years. As a sex worker with no family of origin around, I spent many years alone in darkness even being of service to others. Feeling so drained, even dreading the day, days before it even arrived. I now understand that it is up to me to create the reality I want to experience. I know its difficult so hold my friend, its not forever its temporary. I want to encourage you to step into the light this holiday season, reach out to a friend or a member in the community. We are not victims, we are warriors. 
Sending you so much light and love

xox