Under a giant ash tree in my local cemetery, I unpack a juicy invitation a friend offered me: what if I simply enjoyed my biological instincts - without judging them or needing to act on them?

If you’re a regular listener you’ll know I’m a recovering perfectionist. So I notice how quickly I police urges (from cream buns to sexual desire), labelling them “right/wrong” and shutting down aliveness. Here I reveal an edgy challenge in my own life - feelings of attraction that have awakened primal impulses to protect and possess, and how easily I moralise them.

Guided by embodiment, I talk about the practice of “touching reality with consciousness” - locating the sensation in my body, letting it move, finding safety, and staying with the longing itself.

The episode is an invitation to trade evaluation for presence, to experience appetite as energy, and to widen our capacity to be human messy, desirous, and alive without making it another problem to fix.

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