If you or someone you care about has experienced a devastating loss, you may be wondering how anyone could survive such debilitating grief. How do you find a way forward through that kind of darkness? Living in the light again probably seems impossible. That’s what Kyle and Betty Mertens thought when they lost their one-year-old daughter Ella to an undiagnosed heart defect. On today’s show, Rebecca will talk with this resilient couple about their personal grief journey as well as their work to help others transform heartbreak into healing. Kyle and Betty do much of this healing work through their books and their nonprofit, Ella’s Umbrella. As always, you can find our host, Rebecca Hall Gruyter at the www.RHGTVnetwork.com or at www.yourpurposedrivenpractice.com. Our guests are also online. The Mertens’ online home is: https://www.ellasumbrella.org/.

About our guests: 

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