I had a toddler-level crash out this week… like, full-on crying mid–Hot Girl Walk. In this episode, I try to make sense of where it came from. Hint: my brain was definitely trying to protect me. Between the prednisone taper, nonstop testing, and the mental gymnastics of waiting for answers, I didn’t realize how much my anxiety had been brewing under the surface.

So today, I’m getting real about what’s actually behind it — and what this latest meltdown taught me.

I open up about:

😭 How the literal anticipation of bad news made me crash out
🧠 The sneaky tricks our brains play on us (and why we need to not borrow tomorrow’s trouble)
🩺 Why negative test results can feel like heartbreak

💔 How hard it can be when those you love fail to support you in the way you need
🤯 How I gaslit myself into questioning if I can even be a mom

Anxiety really is one SOB, isn’t it?! 

xx,
Alex

💬 Comment: How do YOU want people to show up for you when you’re struggling — with shit talking, solutions, solidarity, or silliness?

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Intro:

00:00:00 Welcome back to Calling in Sick!

00:03:10 Alex’s Picks of the Week (Elastique, Lola Blanket)

Why I crashed the F out:

00:04:40 Confession time (ie: I crashed out)

00:08:12 Why I think I got so anxious

00:10:35 How my brain started to play tricks on me

00:14:52 My medical update

00:20:26 What I know for sure: my current protocol isn’t working

00:22 50 My reframe since my crash out

00:25:00 The 4 different ways that people need support

00:27:47 The 3 reasons that people may not show up for you when you need them most

Conclusion:

00:34:11 One Brain Cell Show: Dancing with the Stars

00:35:27 My approach for the next 2 months

00:36:18 Thanks for Calling in Sick with me this week!!

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