chronic x chaotic

hey y'allback from a lil hiatus with a bite-sized ep on why we actually SHOULD treat disabled people differently to everyone else! this concept goes against the moral conditioning that a lot of us have, but I question why we assume that treating people in accordance with their identities and needs equates to treating them “badly?”let’s unpack..happy listening, and let’s get weird :)))resource 1 link: https://open.spotify.com/episode/1bkBHMbQ1Gy2QtNGhDKqFL?si=9f1e86b8f20c4004resource 2 link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N28_WsiSe9kemail: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from Pixabay Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

super excited to have my second guest ever on the pod (my non-monog interstate partner lol) to discuss how my neurodivergence has impacted the way we approach our relationship! I'm so passionate about normalising relationship & communication practices that accommodate for conditions such as autism, BPD & OCD, because we all deserve to experience love and connection <3 you don't have to abide by neurotypical, heteronormative or monogamous relationship norms to relate healthily to others!some topics we cover include:how we've structured our r/ship to accommodate for my autismfinding freedom through 'blunt' communicationnavigating triggers when there's extensive attachment traumaexplaining BPD 'splitting' and how we manage ithappy listening, and let’s get weird :)))resource 1 link: https://open.spotify.com/episode/1bkBHMbQ1Gy2QtNGhDKqFL?si=9f1e86b8f20c4004resource 2 link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N28_WsiSe9kemail: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from Pixabay Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

wazzuuup, finally an episode on ADHD? after all this time? how fitting...just a short one describing some standout childhood memories that I can now attribute to ADHD! hoping this helps dispel the idea that hyperactivity only presents as being "naughty" or "out if control." as someone raised as a girl, and as someone who also tends to follow rules as an autistic people pleaser, my hyperactive traits weren't recognised - even by my ADHD assessor, who only diagnosed me as primarily inattentive ://check out my instagram post of the same date titled "ADHD hyperactivity can also present as..." to read through some alternate manifestations that don't fit the ADHD stereotype - hyperactivity isn't limited to the physical, but also includes mental stimulation! happy listening, and let’s get weird :)))email: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from Pixabay Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

hello hello,today we discuss why we may seem "more autistic" when we hit burnout - in other words, why our autistic traits and struggles become more pronounced... no, you're not faking it, or exaggerating your autism. autism can be better understood as a dynamic condition that is influenced by environment, stress levels, energy levels, the presence of other mental illnesses, etc.this episode includes:the factors that I believe have contributed to my autistic burnouthow burnout can hit at times that don't seem to make logical senserelating 20 signs of neurodivergent burnout to my experiencewhat I do to try and manage burnouthappy listening, and let’s get weird :)))email: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from Pixabay Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

srry for fidgeting with the mic throughout this episode lol I'll use an actual stim toy next timehappy listening, and let’s get weird :)))email: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from Pixabay Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

unpacking this hot take: if chronic pain can cause complex-PTSD.. and complex-PTSD is a form of neurodivergence.. then experiencing chronic pain has the capacity to make someone neurodivergent?!In this episode I explain how experiencing chronic pain, illness or disability can lead to physical and functional changes in the brain. Complex-PTSD is a label describing the cluster of symptoms that tend to appear in survivors of long-term, inescapable stress. Our bodies are, quite literally, inescapable. This is why I believe that complex-PTSD is more common in chronic pain patients that we realiseI describe how seemingly small events, or 'micro-traumas,' are extremely common in the daily chronic pain life. Things such as new symptoms arising or medications not working can become traumatising when experienced over and over, day in, day out...This is a great episode to listen to if you have loved ones experiencing chronic pain, as it may help deepen your understanding of the world of medical traumahappy listening, and let’s get weird email: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from Pixabay Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

*** TW ***44:40 - 45:00 - brief mention of suicidality45:40 - 49:20 - discussion on self harm & disordered eatingoooh boy this is so full of info it makes my little autistic heart so happy <3Enjoy the second edition of the Crash Course mini-series! a little more structure than usual and packed with factzIn this episode we are focusing on Personality Disorders (PDs) - Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) in particular. We really get into the nitty gritty of how PDs are classified and diagnosed, which gives us a solid foundation of understanding for the next few episodes where we will go into more depth on BPD itself!This episode covers topics including...how PDs have been traditionally classified, and where modern research is now taking usthe difference between having 'personality difficulties' & actually meeting threshold for a personality disorderdifferent ways in which BPD impulsivity can manifest that are rarely talked aboutwhy I believe clinicians need to be less fearful about flagging PD warning signs in teensCheck the chapters below for a full breakdown of topics!And under that I have included the podcast details I mentioned + a reference list for fellow nerdz <3happy listening, and let’s get weird email: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from PixabayChapters:2:05 - the essence of BPD3:15 - my opinion on the term ‘personality disorder’5:25 - podcast recommendations12:40 - DSM-5 vs. ICD-1115:10 - the DSM cluster system18:55 - the DSM alternative model of PDs19:50 - the AMPD vs. ICD-11 model of PDs22:15 - personality difficulty vs. personality disorder23:45 - PD trait domains29:00 - trait definitions 33:45 - a summary of the BPD experience36:15 - impairments in self functioning 38:00 - impairments in interpersonal functioning41:45 - negative affectivity45:25 - disinhibition 51:15 - antagonism 52:40 - other criteria used to avoid misdiagnosis Podcast Episodes:Speaking of Psychology - What is borderline personality disorder? With Carla Sharp, PhDPsychiatry & Psychotherapy Podcast - Borderline Personality Disorder: History, Symptoms, Environment, Genetics & Brain Science The Borderline Space - BPD - What Even is it?!Back From The Borderline - "It's you and me against BPD" (Exploring complex borderline personality disorder with Dr. Daniel Fox)References:** Here's a link to a google doc containing the references, I had too many characters to include it here! https://docs.google.com/document/d/16NkK-3EDoNoWoq1wXhEG_ugRX_nckntl9U9umcbNp7k/edit?usp=sharing (definitely get in contact if it doesn't work for you, I'm new to this technology lol :)) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

a raw, unfiltered description of what an emotional flashback feels likemost people don't know what emotional flashbacks are, yet I see them happening all around memost people have never even heard of Comlex-PTSD, but I believe that it's one of the most common conditions out therethis is for all the people who feel small, vulnerable, and confused. for the people who don't believe they have any reason to feel this way. you will know in your heart if this resonates with you - try not to go down the rabbit hole of invalidating yourself.."my childhood was perfect, how dare I feel like this?""there are so many people out there that have it worse than me""I love my parents and they love me - how could they ever have hurt me?"if you do resonate, despite these voices in your head invalidating you, I encourage you to seek help from a professional who can help you unpack it. if you're not ready to do that yet, perhaps listening to more of people's personal experiences may help you feel validated and seen. I still have that voice in my head on the daily telling me I have nothing to complain about - that I am ungrateful. but that's the trauma talking. that's what C-PTSD does. it undermines your experiences and tells you to suck it up - so I'm here to remind you that we can start standing up to it and get the help that we deserve.some audiobooks that really helped me validate my less obvious childhood traumas are:Complex PTSD by Pete WalkerRunning on Empty by Jonice WebbAdult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents by Lindsay C. Gibsonmuch love <3*** TW for episode: brief mention of binge eating disorder & suicide (and general heavy themes) ***happy listening, and let’s get weird email: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from Pixabay Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

I REPEAT, I AM NOT A THERAPIST OKEEYYYYthis is just advice I have based on my personal experiences, don't take it if it's not right for you <3the holiday season can bring up intense feelings of grief, so here's some practical tips and reassurance that may help ease just a little bit of the pain. sending so much love to you.check the chapters below for a full breakdown of topics xxhappy listening, and let’s get weird email: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from PixabayChapters:1:45 - chit-chat3:10 - acknowledgement of Wiradjuri country5:40 - grief isn’t exclusive to death of a loved one8:25 - you’re allowed to grieve things that hurt you11:40 - clean-cut stages of grief don’t exist15:10 - you don’t shrink your grief, you grow around it18:20 - time only heals if you’re doing the work23:05 - grieving looks different for everyone29:05 - learning to grieve takes practice 41:20 - intentional grieving time47:10 - vessels for your grief55:45 - complex trauma, shame & crying58:35 - you don’t have to shed tears to prove that you loved them Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

buckle up and welcome to our chaotic, disability-ridden friendship >:)I am joined by my bestie Gem Campbell, as we laugh & cry about how f*cked up our weirdly similar lives arean equally casual and serious conversation about living with so-called "invisible" disabilities, garnished with some oversharing and inappropriate jokes. We talk about how our disabilities aren't actually invisible at all, and how much it hurts that the world around us constantly turns a blind eye to our struggles just because we appear 'healthy' at a glanceremember that other people don't get to decide whether you are disabled or not - you know your struggle better than anyone, and it is so valid. we see you xxGem's deets are listed below!! Their work is so incredibly unique & vulnerable - everyone needs a bit of Gem in their life. Gem (they/them) is a qualified Dietitian, Nutritionist & Sexologist! They work with people to strip back the layers of societal conditioning and shame, especially when it comes to period empowerment and sexual healing. Check them out and I'm sure you'll fall in love their quirky content too! Let's support our self-employed queer, neurodivergent & disabled folkhappy listening, and let's get weirdGem's platforms ~podcasts: The ND EnbiesBlood Slutinstagram accounts: @thendenbiespodcast@iamawildgemwebsite:iamawildgem.comemail:gem@iamawildgem.commy deets ~email: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from Pixabay Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What is dissociation? Why does it happen? And what does it feel like for me personally?This episode is all about dissociation - the safety feature that our brains use to protect us from overwhelm. Join me as we de-mystify & de-stigmatise this poorly understood phenomenon. Dissociative disorders are lesser known mental illnesses to the general public, but the stigma still runs rampant throughout pop culture. Ever heard of multiple personality disorder? Perhaps you've seen a horror movie in which the villain has a whole host of scary, alternate personalities... This is the common misrepresentation of Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), and other types of dissociative disorders, that we see in the media. I can assure you that as the people actually LIVING with these disorders, we are the ones experiencing the most fear - dissociative disorders develop as a response to trauma, and demonising them doesn't help anyone. I recorded this in the midst of a dissociative episode, hence why it is a bit melancholy and poorly articulated at times. I was so close to re-recording it, but decided that I don't want to censor my experiences. That's what this podcast is all about - it's raw, and it's vulnerable. Shame feeds the cycle of mental illness, so let's f*ck it offhappy listening, and let's get weirdemail: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from Pixabay Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Part 2 is here!!A solid 55 minutes of storytelling and getting my b*tch on >:-)Covering my 4 most recent diagnoses - autism, ADHD, BPD & dissociative disorder. Explaining how the system let me down in my first assessment, where I walked away with neither an autism nor ADHD diagnosis.. and how I slowly worked up the strength to go back and advocate for myself a second time. So many late-diagnosed people can relate to the invalidation I experienced - I hope this gives you hope if you've been let down by professionals. A reminder that self-diagnosis is so valid, I knew I had BPD and a dissociative disorder long before any professionals brought it up with me. No one knows you better than you know yourself, and the neurodivergent community is here to back you <3happy listening, and let's get weirdemail: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from Pixabay Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Hiya pals,Second ever episode, with all the juicy, trauma dumping deets coming right up ;)Here you'll find all the essential background information on me that leads up to my autism x ADHD diagnosis in 2022. I briefly discuss my early mental illness symptoms, and the diagnoses of anxiety, depression, PTSD, complex-PTSD, OCD, disordered eating and body dysmorphia that I received over the years. I'll get into the diagnoses I received this year in part 2 (coming out next week), and talk about the process of discovering my autism, ADHD, BPD and dissociative disorderI'll be releasing dedicated episodes about my childhood signs of autism & ADHD in the near future, there's enough content there to write a separate novel..happy listening, and let's get weirdemail: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from Pixabay Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Oh em geee it’s the first episodeee! Kicking it off with some foundational information on autism & ADHD, including:factors contributing to late diagnosisthe problem with functioning labelshow the autism spectrum actually worksthe issue with the term Asperger’s& the deal with neurodiversityCheck the chapters below for a full breakdown of topics!I’m thinking of making more Crash Course episodes and having them as a little educational miniseries, scattered amongst my other episodes that are based more upon my personal experiences! Think of it like the basics, the stuff you need to know so you can sound smart when educating people ;)(apologies for the bird sounds and strange audio at times, didn't realise until I was editing oop)happy listening, and let’s get weird email: chronicxchaotic@gmail.cominstagram: chronic.x.chaoticwebsite coming soon...** Please email me if you require an episode transcript!! **Music is Los Angeles by Muzaproduction from PixabayChapters:1:19 - chit-chat3:45 - autism/ADHD crossover 5:43 - autism/ADHD prevalence6:30 - factors affecting autism diagnosis - gender9:28 - factors affecting autism diagnosis - racial discrimination 11:51 - ramble about planning13:51 - factors affecting autism diagnosis - socioeconomic status & support needs14:56 - support needs vs. functioning labels24:51 - the autism spectrum26:22 - the issue with the term Asperger’s28:52 - ADHD types30:36 - neurodivergent vs. neurotypical brains Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.