A raw meditation on addiction — exploring cravings, the rewiring of the brain, the illusion of pleasure, and the slow erosion of spirit. I share my personal journey through substances, cannabis dependency, and the deeper cycles of indulgence, panic, depression, and recovery. More than just a warning, this reflection frames addiction as both a destructive demon and a strange teacher — a shamanic descent into the underworld that can either consume you or forge wisdom from suffering.

Chapters:

0:00 – Opening meditation on addiction

0:32 – The demon of desire and escape

1:55 – Cravings and the brain’s rewiring

3:49 – Early sobriety and distorted memory

5:45 – Addiction, loneliness & meaninglessness

7:01 – Cannabis and the illusion of self-medicine

9:57 – From cannabis to harder substances

12:27 – The compulsive redose loop

14:05 – Anhedonia and loss of natural joy

16:01 – The devil’s seduction: pleasure vs. spirit

17:00 – Addiction as shamanic descent and rebirth