EP 57 How to Wait Patiently on the Lord When You Are Tired Weak Frustrated Angry Hurt: How to Trust God When His Timing is Not Fast Enough For Me

Okay. How many of you guys can say that you honestly know how to patiently wait on the Lord. When you are feeling only frustrated and angry and upset and throwing tantrums all over the place. How many of you guys can actually say that that never happens to you and you always know how to patiently wait on the Lord, raise your hand. Okay. My hand is not raised just in case you wanna know, because I have to continuously try to wait patiently on the Lord. And today that is exactly what we're gonna talk about.

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Hey, welcome back to this episode of Wholly Made Life™, Ladies. I am so glad to be back. I don't know about you, but hopefully you've been patiently waiting a lot better than I have in this season. I have missed several weeks, even about a month, probably maybe a little over a month actually, of recording. And that is because I have been trying to rearrange my life with this new real estate agent business that I am building right now out. And I've been doing that since about October 14th, actually. So we're going on two months and at the same time, some of the coaching that I'm doing, as well as the work in the real estate investing. And then finally I am managing vacation rentals here in downtown Louisville. And so I have been kind of doing like a huge startup all at once with all of these different things.

So it has been absolutely insane and it's holiday time. So there you go. On November 20th, 2020, it was my year anniversary of resigning, my chief nursing officer position. And so today's episode is all about with eating patiently and how do you wait patiently when you are super frustrated, super tired, flat out angry, and just don't really know where to go and what to do. So that is what today's episode is gonna be about. Ladies is how can we persevere and wait patiently on God when we are tired and frustrated. So let's get into the episode. Okay. So like I said, November 20th, 2020 was my year anniversary of resigning, my chief nursing officer position. And most of you guys, if you've listened to some of the beginning episodes, you know, that this journey that I've been on for the past year started with a God word, God directed me to resign for my chief nursing officer position.

Essentially give him that position, that title, that salary, that work life that I had that career give it all up to him as a sacrificial offering. And he would show me what's next. And he had something more, something better, something bigger for me. Now, you know, at the beginning of that transition, it was a lot of time where I just took to decompress and kind of, I guess, just chill out from being, you know, having worked for the past two decades where I'm on call 24 7, I am running for no less than 80 hours a week. And on the phone, if I'm not on site at work. So it just took like several months to decompress from that and not feel like anxious when I walk out of the room and I forget the phone and realize, oh my gosh, maybe I missed an important phone call, that kind of thing.

So it took me several months to I decompress from that. And as I kind of listened and asked him to kind of tell me, okay, what do you want me to do next? You know, starting this podcast a year, actually the first episode dropped on December 31st, 2020, so almost a year ago. And that was all a God idea. He said, do a podcast. And so I said, okay, if I'm gonna do a podcast, you're gonna have to tell me what to talk about on every episode. And quite frankly, some of the hiatus that I've been on is because I didn feel at peace with what it was he asked. He of, of, I didn't feel at peace with getting on here and dropping an episode about something that I didn't feel came directly from him. Because I really resolved when I resigned that position, I really resolved to really try to step as he has directed me, you know this plaque that I got as a gift from one of these, the ladies at work when I was leaving it was the song, I think it's hill song oceans, you know, spirit lead me where my justice is without borders that song.

So I really tried to be very intentional to when I took steps, I wanted it to be him directing me and not my own needs, once desires my own need to control things. So I tried, I approached the podcast in that very way. I prayed about what do you want me to talk about? And then, you know, an idea would pop in and I would feel at peace that, yeah, that was from him. And then some of the weeks that I didn't drop anything, it was because I just didn't feel at peace with what it was I was thinking about. I just didn't feel at peace that it was from him. And I really didn't want this podcast to be about something. I specifically my own, like flesh wanted to talk to people about, or talk to the computer about talk to the microphone about, but I really wanted it to be led by spirit, you know, led by the holy spirit because I, this wasn't my idea to do a podcast.

And so I wanted to be true to if it's, it led, then let it be spirit led. So that's kind of where we are so fast forward to about the last month or so maybe month. Yeah. A month or so. You know, when I resigned that position back in November, I, when I hit that year 11, 20, 20, 21 I, it was almost like you know, the stages of grief where you, you have the loss of something. So you're angry, you're in, you're in denial, you're in bargaining. You know, anger is actually it's sick CLIC, right? You, it doesn't have to be fluid. It's not like, step 1, 2, 3, when someone's grieving something or grieving the law of something it's fluid. It goes from maybe bargaining to denial, to anger, back to bargaining, back to, you know, those kinds of things. So I kind of slipped into this almost, like I said, part of a grieving process where I started to feel like not angry as in like angry, something around like, like aggressively angry, but just like frustrated that like, man, I was making a really good salary and I, I had everything set and I gave it all up and I'm still God sitting here a year later.

And I don't feel like I'm in the place that I personally would've wanted to be in financially for sure. I mean, it has been so humbling. It has been such a season of sacrifice. At the same time though, it's been kind of this, this double edged thing, because it's been such a blessing too, because I'm telling you guys math. I don't know if you know that two plus two equals four. Well, not in this past year. It hasn't, we have been so blessed with I seriously, when I look at our budget and I look at how many bills that we had to pay, and I look at the amount of money that came into our bank account. Since I resigned, the math does not work out. It just doesn't make sense yet. Here we are a year later and while I'm not making a huge salary the bills that we had that matched the salary that I was making before, they're all being paid on time.

We haven't missed a thing and that's nothing but miraculous. I mean, that is nothing but God's hand right on that because I'm telling you guys two plus two does not equal four, a situation math does not add up. So while frustrated that I'm not where I personally thought I would be at this point a year later from resigning. At the same time I look at like, I look around and I'm like, man, what a blessing? Like what a testimony that it it's just like, you can't even explain it. The math just doesn't add up. We should not have been able to make all the payments we made and pay all the bills that we've paid. The math doesn't add up, but it's, it's real it, we've done it. And so that's all God and that's who God, you know, not, not just God, but it always God, but God uses people around us.

So we've been blessed by people that have been in our lives and we've received gifts. And just, it's just been such a blessing yet for this path month and a half. And this is what I wanna talk about is waiting patiently on the Lord, because for this past month, not a month and a half month, I have, I actually recently just had to get on these and pray to God and repent really just apologize because I've been acting like such a brat, like moping around, you know, like being sad about the fact like, okay, my bank account still doesn't have, you know, not even one zero in it, you know what I mean? , you know what I mean? And man, I've just been moping and almost feeling getting into this, like this, the sad I don't use depression lightly. I mean, that's a clinical word, but you feeling down and like frustrated and like, man, even to the point where I started to question God, did you really tell me to do what I think you did a year ago?

And what I know is what I know, I know what I heard and I know throughout months and months of prayer I know all of that was confirmed and I know that that was the right thing to do. I know that that's what I was being directed to do. But a year later when things aren't where I personally think that they should be, I have to, to remind mysel