The Fourth Tuesday

第四个星期二

We Talk About Death (24)

我们聊了聊死亡

"The things you spend so much time on—all this work you do—might not seem as important. You might have to make room for some more spiritual things."

“那些你花了如此之多的时间所做的事情——你的所有工作——很可能看起来没那么重要。你可能需要为一些更加精神层面的东西腾出空间。”

Spiritual things?

精神层面的东西？

"You hate that word, don't you? 'Spiritual.' You think it's touchy—feely stuff."

“你讨厌那个字眼，对吧？‘精神的。’ 你觉得就是哭哭啼啼情绪化的东西。”

Well, I said.

好吧，其实... 我开口想说些什么。

He tried to wink, a bad try, and I broke down and laughed.

莫瑞试着对我挤了挤眼睛，但是没成功，我破功地笑了起来。

"Mitch," he said, laughing along, "even I don't know what 'spiritual development' really means. But I do know we're deficient in some way. We are too involved in materialistic things, and they don't satisfy us. The loving relationships we have, the universe around us, we take these things for granted."

“米契，”他继续讲话，但也跟着一起笑起来，“即便我不懂 ‘精神发展’ 真的是什么意思。但我仍然明白我们在某种程度上是有缺陷的。我们太过沉迷于物质，但那并不能满足我们。我们所拥有的友爱的人际关系，我们周遭的天地万物，我们都把这些东西太过当做理所当然。”

He nodded toward the window with the sunshine streaming in.

他向着阳光徐徐照耀进来的窗户点了点头。

"You see that? You can go out there, outside, anytime. You can run up and down the block and go crazy. I can't do that. I can't go out. I can't run. I can't be out there without fear of getting sick. But you know what? I appreciate that window more than you do."

“你看到了吗？你可以到外面去，任何时间都行。你可以在大街上来回奔跑疯玩。但我不能。我去不了外面。我也不能跑。我没法不带着会生病的担心出去外面撒欢。但是你知道吗？我比你更加感激那扇通向外面的窗户。”

Appreciate it?

这还感激？

"Yes. I look out that window every day. I notice the change in the trees, how strong the wind is blowing. It's as if I can see time actually passing through that windowpane. Because I know my time is almost done, I am drawn to nature like I'm seeing it for the first time."

“没错。我每天都能透过那扇窗户看向外面。我能感知到草木的变化，吹过的风有多强烈。仿佛透过那扇窗户玻璃我能真的 ‘看见’ 时间流逝。因为我知道我几乎要大限将至了，我被大自然深深吸引仿佛如同平生初见。”

He stopped, and for a moment we both just looked out the window.

他停下来，有那么好一会儿，我们俩都只是一起静静地看着窗外。

I tried to see what he saw.

我试图去看莫瑞看到的那些东西。

I tried to see time and seasons, my life passing in slow motion.

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